Papa

Should I sit down and write father?

Of everything that I am feeling right now.

They say it would do a lot of good.

The truth is Papa, everything would have been fair

Had you been there.

 

I learnt my first steps without any support,

Rode bicycles on my own,

Took flights alone,

At 23 papa, I can go anywhere with the bike mum got me.

But this life still seems still

Like the ship with its anchor down yet trying to sail.

 

I could use a bit of help father,

Someone once told me that my foundation is weak

And hence there is a lot of quakes

Weak foundation is a fault of mine?

Did I push away the pillar?

I was a child!

I was a child.

 

From A B C’s , 1 2 3’s to ‘I love you’

Papa, it was I trying to figure out life.

‘Love’ to me was even a bit of care from a stranger!

Who stood by me to teach that it wasn’t?

I still can’t read the real intentions of people

I am naïve to the world still.

Tell me father had you been there,

You would be my superhero and save me from villains?

 

Papa, I can’t see the world as it is.

I am too withdrawn from the world.

People tend to misuse every move of mine.

Then there seems to come a savior

But none like a real father.

And papa here I really need your help.

 

Hundreds of therapies didn’t work.

Now I know I need my papa and not a doctor.

Others say I crave sympathy but I crave love.

As desperate as it may sound.

Is it wrong Papa?

 

They all point their fingers at me unnecessarily

Like you don’t care if someone does me wrong

Show them it’s not true Papa.

I could call God for help

But sometimes I need you more.

 

I need you Papa

Not just to teach me right or wrong

But to show me the right things so I can differ the rest.

 

Papa, there seems nowhere I can be safe.

Nothing to compensate your love.

The world’s a scary place, yeah

Don’t leave me alone.

Though there were things that I learnt and did alone,

Father I could use your help,

Everything would have been fair,

Had you been there.