My Suicide Letter

Death

Is it a moment of complete silence?

The whispering voices in my head become numb?

Will I finally embrace the cold loneliness?

I could end it all.

With rat’s poison or rope or river

Or cut myself deep till the blood gushes out of my body.

I might lay there begging anyone to save

Or simple be happy that the final moments are nearer

And a full stop for an eternity of feeling low.

And next?

Who says that the next part won’t nest

Any of the sufferings I felt,

Or what if it’s for the worse?

Look! there goes my mind, wondering yet again towards darkness of everything.

Now with the stillness around me,

I remember,

How the dogs lick my face

And I drown in the ocean of joy.

Or how the Sun’s bright light warm my mind.

Or how the lover’s touch bring me hope.

The tasty food giving my tummy a hearty massage.

Or the green grass, the animals, the ocean’s waves,

Or simply the thought of someone’s love that scares away all of my fears.

I know there are a thousand reasons for me to welcome death.

Yet, there are ten thousand reasons why I could start over all again.

Death, until it's time. 

Goodbye.