Pain I don't say out loud
Pain I don't say out loud
There are some nights of autumn
Whence the breeze velocity is same as the moles
Of emotion protruding
The furrowed pain inside me
Everything in me was silent,
The sparkling music of my heart
Went dead like a misplaced music box
Reciprocating to a discordant sound
Of musical cacophony in disguise
Later, I took myself to this sunny place where
I had countless windows closed
One by one to return
To a bay of scarlet-hued sky
In my flat fist palm-shaped heart,
On whither a home is built under my dissent,
The pain I don't say out loud
Builds a home inside me;
I although know the chasm of ocean like the palm of my palm,
I'm drowning under the water;
For it breathes like the fish
That drowns for the sea
I swallowed,
Cried inside me and saved inside me
As if I die in the abyss sea where I live- a conundrum
Pain has been a tearing
Between the seams of pants
Of all that I've been.
Until when growing a bigger heart
In weaving a thicker skin;
And becoming much more than,
What we lose and what we win.
All of the sadness indices
And all the possible joy,
Grow ripe like fruits,
Chivalry is the heart
That plucks them both,
Tasting the blessing,
Of being able to feel so much at all