Nothing Changed

Thrown out, thrown out in the mist,

Waiting for a miracle to cast me.

The last person who cared for me is gone,

Now I've to fight alone for survival.

Let's take this innocent mask off,

Unleashing the beast hidden for the last few years.

Since no one acknowledges me let me forget them,

Returning back to the place where memories flew.

I can still smell the aroma of blood that used to cover me up.

The leftover stains of blood on my hands have deeply penetrated,

Through my eyes into my soul.

It has dried so hard, that I can't just wash them off.

The amount of effort I had put to maintain who I'm,

The amount of effort I had to put to be myself.

It all went in vain; I had lost all that was once mine.

The slightest crack that came from the direction of the door, woke me.

I don't remember when I fell asleep.

Surprised to find that all was just a daydream.

Once my greatest strength was now my biggest weakness.

Nothing changed, everything remained the same.

And I was the same young girl who was longing to be back in the ring again.