I Surrendered To My Heart...

I would regret it my whole life, again,

 If I break your heart and leave you in pain;

 For whom I never saw even once with my eyes,

 Who is just in my dreams like a future prize;

 But now I don’t want to repeat again, to history,

 Because of which I am still in misery;

 I have seen enough of my obsession,

 But now I opened my eyes and learnt a lesson;

 Why I am still running, what is that,

 For which I am lying under his feet like a foot-mat;

 What is special in him, why I am still haunted,

 Isn’t it love, to which all I wanted;

 An Alexander doesn’t know what is heart,

 For he is always valuing himself just in mart;

 How can he heal a heart’s wound,

 Who doesn’t know even its sound;

 For he is purchasing it like some sward,

 To put it in his house like customary lard;

 Testing my virtuous strength, invading my privacy,

 Whose name I don’t know, not even his legacy;

 To which I will inherit, and feel like a queen,

 And build my home on the blood seen;

 But why spread this blood for some king unseen,

 Who is good I don’t know or some mean;

 When I know today I got a heart made of gold,

 So why to leave it for some story, still untold;

 A story which seems like never written,

 Whose wait, making me like a lass forgotten;

 But, wait a minute, he is watching, he too knows,

 What I am thinking, where my heart goes;

 And I loved him too, like I loved nothing, nobody before,

 Without him, I am like a body without soul, nothing more;

My heart still beats for him and my eyes still on his way,

 I still dream us to gather with falling on us sun’s blessing ray;

Matter of heart not in hurry, should be thought in advance,

 So I should give him at least one final chance;

 If he too loves me, he will come in brisk,

 For now it is too late, so he will not take any risk;

 For now it is time to say goodbye to this mirky moon,

 And allow sun to come out, which is promising bright noon;

 But, wait a minute, will I run to him barefooted,

 Nay, I will ask, these days where his soul was rooted;

 Yes I love him and yes he is my deepest desire,

 But, as he kept me in cell, then why I will marry to a liar;

 Was he virtuous and waited for me holding all his carnal,

 As I was consumed all by him, only he was object of my sensual;

 For like me he too wants to make a home, and searching love,

 And he knows, without love I’ll fly, search somebody else as my hub;

 Nay, not keep in cell, believe in whatever he will pronounce,

 Only then consider him worthy for my love, only then I’ll announce;

 Now my soul is restless, and making restless to my each vein,

 Does he love me, will he come, or my love will go in vain;

 With his heart, soul, body and mind, all time, if he was mine,

 Then he will come and between us let love brightly to shine;

 Let last time, once more, my obsession play its role,

 Perhaps this time it will win and will get its goal;

 And here this is the final day, the final time of my wait,

 I saw a vision, what was destined to me, what was not in my fate;

 He didn’t come as I knew, that I am just fooling me, I was at fault,

 How can he be like a fish of river when all the time he swims in the sea salt;

But thinking, I waited for him for all these days, for so many years,

 How I ignored everything and how I was all the time lost and in tears;

How a lass who never lost heart, feeling today lost and broken,

 But, still not that much, still feel my faith has not been shaken;

 Nay, I am not going to wait for him, not him in my life anymore,

 All I searched love and I know love is waiting for me at the shore;

 But, I loved him with my whole heart, he was part of my soul too,

 But, perhaps never that much, perhaps never there the pure hue;

For I know, the most cherished, the most desired, only that we get,

 So if not him, then I perhaps never truly desired, so why to regret;

 But I remember him, loved him and only he was into my life's rhyme,

 Euphoric, one more soul is there who born with me, at the same time;

I just thought, this time I will reach, for he is my made soul mate,

 But not, that’s why lost him, perhaps never meant for my fate;

To find and marry my soul mate, I still remember my childhood dream,

 He of pure heart, golden locks and polished with some upper cream;

 But I know, not anyone, white or brown will work, for I saw many,

 Why this one held me so long, to this my heart knows only;

 AND HERE, BEHOLD YOUR HEART! Why, again my heart’s going to him,

 Why, why! This unseen stranger, still in me, till the my heart’s brim;

 OH THE SOUL! I am so obsessed of him, I still feel he is for me, he is my soul mate,

 OH THE SOUL! I’m so sorry, for my heart says he’ll come yes he’ll come so I should wait.