I forgot how envy I can get!

Hands that held mine,

Eyes that gazed me,

Love that was mine,

Now all belong to her! 

When I think about you and her,

My heart starts brimming with  poison,

My stomach starts tearing apart insides,

As it falls downward fast!

I forgot how envy I can get,

After years of not feeling much of anything,

And I hate how it feels,

Because I know it’s not ok;

Your past is a part of you,

And I think you’re perfect the way you are!

But when I think of how you hurt me?

Cheated me? 

When I loved you unconditionally!

How you hit me with your words,

And blamed me for everything,

When I was no more important in your life! 

How you left me?

Alone and broken,

When I needed you more !