History Repeats

I did not like when she ignored me

When she did not talk to me

When she left me on my own

To succumb to confusion.

  

What could be the reason

I struggled to figure out

But always failed

Succumbing to silence.

Minutes of silence stretched to hours

Hours to days and days to weeks

And then all came back to normalcy

I succumbed to the situation.

My best friend, my role model

My confidant and my support

All dissolving into thin air

I succumbed to defeat, unaware.

Now, years later, I am a mother to teenagers

I now understand the reason

Why my mom chose to be silent

She was living her life with her ups and downs.

Having experienced the consequences

I cannot see my kids wither

To whatever I am facing in my life

Be it my hormonal imbalances or health issues.

I choose to make it clear, my reasons for silence

I take my time out to reconcile

For I want to leave a beautiful image etched 

In the hearts of my kids to remember, long after I am gone.