Friends From Stardust

I agree - you never asked for any of them;

I gave them all as a token of my gratitude!

You never know what have you given me:

You saved the dying part of me

That is so live and hopeful once,

You woke up those butterflies 

From almost 7 years of hibernation,

My purpose for life has been altered,

I got the drive to go on.

Without any concrete reason to quote,

You mean the world to me.

I give, give and give price-tagged materials 

Not because I have in excess

But because I can’t express enough my gratitude 

For the change, you brought into my life

I know you don’t feel the same,

I understand you were there just for time-being,

Yet, nobody ever was there for me once in my lifetime

You showed me in such a short span of time:

How it would be to live the life I dreamed!

I am aware:

I am too poor to achieve it,

I am physically incorrigible,

I am a boring person to converse,

I am old and pathetic,

I am clumsy and dramatic;

But, I never hide any of them 

I am always true to myself and others...

Of all the human beings I know 

I expect the least from you:

 Please don’t highlight any of them to me,

And just accept my gratitude gifts!

I understand you want to push me away,

So you hit hard on my soft spot. 

Even you did indirectly - it hurts so much,

Neither I expressed how I feel about you,

Nor I ever cling on you tangibly...

Yet, you always advise me to be practical,

And to fit into the society I live in,

Which is impossible...

My inner self keeps drifting away from practicality.

I am sorry I can’t stake other’s life,

For my social and financial securities! 

I can’t have control over my emotions either...

(I guess no one ever has!)

They get invested without my conscious choice,

They are super strong and rustic;

Once they organically grew fond of someone, 

They can’t easily change their course.

My reasons keep them intact in all seasons -

And make sure not to meddle with your course!

How can I be calm?

When you are physically and emotionally suffering?

I do keep myself away from you,

I don’t want to know your whereabouts,

I am being practical with you!

Though I wake up and go to bed with your thoughts,

I never ever tried to reach out to you;

Yet, the pain you are going through haunts me...

Too dramatic but true! 

Most of the times I feel you next to me,

Though we don’t talk for months together!

I believe we were stardust friends in the Universe

And are born in meat suits in different decades,

Who are not meant to meet each other

As a punishment and yet we met!

I take the punishment of the Universe seriously

And I want to literally run away from you,

Hoping to meet you again as stardust!