Ambiguos Obscurity

Every second thought is my grave,

But every first thought is your violence. 

Every first breath is thy name, 

That I've uttered in piercing silence. 

All the kisses sting,

When you open your mouth.

All the tears turn into blood,

When you pin me to the ground.

All of my heart shatters

When you are around.

I've cut myself for you,

You've healed those cuts for me.

I've been burnt from your tongue,

You've made me yearn for your touch.

I've killed myself for you multiple times,

You've saved me each and every time. 

You're why I hate,

You keep leaving me in agony.

but you taught me to love.

Now what do I call this epiphany?