A Sob Story

I met him, he said, have a ‘don’t care ‘ attitude,

But he doesn’t even know what was the magnitude.

Hey, I’m sad, I’m crying, where are you, man?

For everything that’s been done to me, I have my gratitude

When they are talking about you, it’s hard to ignore,

But you are my friend, so have to adore.

Why all those questions, did I not pay all my dues?

Inside my mind, there are anxiety, blood, and gore.

I choose to wander the war in my mind

With no other choice, I don’t look behind.

Most of the time, I’m dead from outside

Cause I’m too busy fighting in my own mind.

Because once it is over, I don’t wanna rewind.

Is it ok to say that I don’t want to stay awake?

Because my nightmares are sweeter than my real-world cake.

Can I say that there is comfort in staying in the dark?

Because there is nowhere to move so no headache.

In the world full of clowns,

They seem so colorful, but so down,

Where, in the pain, I would frown,

Screaming for answers, I would never get,

I thought of writing it on paper, but I never jotted down.

I thought no compromise,

But that’s what I’ve done all the time,

My answers would chime, in my mind,

Time to time.

I’m an ice-cold killer of my time

But I’m too busy shooting at infinity,

Just to know that everything I do is just a crime.

I’ve thrown words, that I can’t take back,

I fought to take it back and I lost my track,

Is there any way I can mend it back,

‘If I said it, I meant it’

But still, I’m sorry, what it costs to take it back?

I’ve got a crack in my fortified mind

Sometimes, somethings slip out of it

And costs me, once I thought was mine.

Some people think that I’m too good to be true,

Sometimes, I think that about myself too,

Tried to make everything up, to just mess everything up.

When the smoke cleared,

The picture was clear,

It came up to be, the most what I feared.

Now begins the real story,

I burn myself to ash, for the glory

Which doesn’t exist!

I burn all my books for my sob story

Which is supposed to be grand!

But, yet, so boring.

Little less I know,

I’m taking my whole family with me, for the show

Now I’m celebrating my negative growth

And my comfort is in the last row

My mind went to hibernation mode,

Because it couldn’t take the slightest load,

Don’t come close, I may explode.

I didn’t take the less taken road

I already started to Corrode,

No time to Reload

And I can’t fight with my blunt sword

I always feel the bogie at my six

Bogie coming in hot but ain’t got no kick

I can’t move on cause my road ain’t fixed

My mission got Nixed

I got feelings that are mixed

Everyone got a ton of tips

My dead ears are listening

With my freaking sealed lips

Sometimes I feel untouchable,

Only the best, anything else’s unacceptable,

Sometimes I feel like

I’m gonna leave the darkness behind

Because my soul is becoming unbearable,

Even to myself, I’m unreachable, unreasonable.

So keep shooting at because I’m impenetrable.

Life is always about taking the risk

But it isn't a gamble, so you cannot play tricks

Hey laughter, long time no

see,

Come visit sometime to give me sometime

Why can’t you just be my cup of tea

Without a word, away you flee

Understood, you are no more free,

Ok, I lost, come back, please agree

I just killed that man,

100 feet deep I’ll bury,

So that the spirit won’t scare me

I’ll do whatever is decided by the jury,

Haha, just kidding, you think I’ll agree,

Keep testing the patience inside me,

You can’t wake up the dead from its glee.