Struggle Never Ends

The girl named Shiddat was born on 9 Dec 1992. She lived in one small village 7 km far away from the main district... She was the only daughter in her family and has one brother... Her father was good but was addicted to cannabis... Whenever he had that he came to the home and beat his wife she was a most intelligent and beautiful lady of her village and was literate... Shiddat was afraid of her father and she was watching her mother every day crying... Many times her mother tried to do Suicide... She was the for her, her mother was saved by God I guess... Literally, watch this kind of thing at home... Shiddat wasn't able to pay attention to her studies... She was called the dull student of the class... The everyday fight between her parents made her disturbed in her life... She started living alone..... Arguing with her friends... Feeling lonely, no one was able to understand her... Her mother was doing the job as well. One day one man came to her home and mom introduced that man friend of his brother... Time passed the man started coming twice a week and was very helpful towards Shiddat's family. Slowly shiddat got mature day by day and she got know that her mother has affairs with that man that was the reason he was very h helpful... Shiddat started hating her mother. Now, She Started making herself busy with drawing, household work and studies... She was trying to pretend normal girl... That actually she wasn't... Finally, she passed her board exams and her father left the cannabis and all became very kind to his family... The argument between his parents continued...

One day she got to know her brother has been addicted to Alcohol and cannabis... When he came to home he started fighting with his family and beating her sister... Shiddat thought I will suicide. But suddenly she started thinking people will talk about her they call her guilty and had defamed her... That she doesn't want... Shiddat started l studying Psychology and made her busy with that. Her struggle for life was too cruel... She was crying every day. She questioned God why I am the victim when I was the culprit... What I had done. One day saw the boy on the bus and she fell in love at first sight... After months the boy proposed to her... After a few years she accepted her proposal... Now she was feeling better but was scared about her fate... A few years ago that boy left her and married another girl because shiddat's brother indulged in some bad habits... She was again thinking I am again victim... Finally, she completed her studies and started a job as a teacher...

Now she was working in a small school very far away from her own village. To made herself very busy... So she won't face the brother and his arguing parents... The word divorce was in my ears always... Her maternal family decided to find a boy for her. Finally, they succeed and Shiddat got engaged...few weeks left she started to realize that her fiance is not giving her such respect she deserve because she belonged to a middle-class family and he was demanding every day some expensive gifts and all... He started beating her and taunting her if she refused to give him anything one day he said I will break the relationship if your father will not buy a car for me at the wedding... She said we can't afford... He started to defame her as a characterless girl... Shiddat was again struggling...She was feeling stressed, depressed and frustrated... Now she realised why her mother had a relationship... Finally, she said it's better do the mistake that my mother done it's better to break the relationship... Finally, She broke up with her fiance... And no one was talking to her... She was all alone... She left the home and went to Punjab so she can do the job well out of the stress... But the Pandemic spreads all over the world and she came back... At home, she again went stressed and started having stress pills... After a lot of hardworking, she got a job in a big school that has fame... Here she I will be happy. I will forget all pain. But when she joined the school and became a Student counsellor because of the teacher my parents wouldn't understand my feelings but I will try to understand the feelings of students and their problems... But unfortunately, here she met two friends who made her world beautiful later she got to know all that was they were using her..... But her struggle is still going on... I hope she will get better now and her fate will not deceive her...