The Last Day - Part 4

She didn't say anything for a moment and then her voice cracked in guilt...

She: Look I really apologize for it. I was desperately looking to set up my business and was focused on it. I may have forgotten but that didn't mean I wanted to run away from it. Why didn't you asked for the rent amount? It was my decision to get separated and I had absolutely no issues with the rent. 

Me: I didn't feel like asking you about it. Maybe proactively if you would have come and talked about the rent issue then I might have accepted it but still not sure. Anyways what has happened has happened neither you nor I can change it now. So it's better we only look after each other's present state of mind and situations.

After some time again there was that famous silence but this time I didn't allow it much.

Me: hows your garment shop going on...

She: good... it has picked up the pace recently..

Me: good handle it well things can quickly take pace but what's important is the control which keeps us in the hunt for a long time.

She: we cannot control everything. so we just need to trust the time and be thankful to whatever it's offering to you.

Me: I didn't ask you to control everything but there are few things which we definitely can control and that is what we need to asses.

for eg:- if you see a little bit of water flowing continuously through the tap even when the tap is closed, you need to get the tap repaired to control the water flow. May not be today but sooner or later that wastage of water is going to affect you in some or the other way. That's the control I am talking about which u need to apply on things. what you can't control is ending up being waterless in spite of those repair work irrespective of the reason.

She smiled and then it was like everything changed the flavour of that moment. we talked a lot freely after that about our common friends who are where and all of those. for around 20 minutes or so and all of sudden, she asked an unexpected question.

She: will you get married again if you see another opportunity in future. 

Me: well right now my answer will be "never" but with life you "never" really know. things which you are not willing to do today will be forced on you and vice versa.

What about you??? 

She: I have no interest and courage in repeating the same mistake one more time.

Me: mistake ok. good.

Nilima I still remember your biryani.. you use to make it absolutely delicious. I remember you told me your friend Aasma taught you right?

She: yeah... you know when I attempted it for the first time it was so messy but thereafter on the second occasion, I figured it out those preparation basics and judgement of flavours and no looking back after that it was all about executing the perfect recipe. Aasma even complimented once that I prepare better than her.

Me: good so that it means you didn't repeat those mistakes you did in your first attempt. But I didn't understand why you didn't give up after your first attempt to preparing a messy biryani.

She: because I desperately wanted to prove myself that I can prepare it. 

Me: Nilima the same goes with marriage. marriage is not a mistake. Mistakes occur when you try to execute the perfect recipe of a happy marriage. Above all its somehow true that there is no perfect recipe of a happy married life. It will always go through those taste swings sometimes sweet sometimes spicy but both husband and wife need to take care of one important thing and that is it shouldn't go "tasteless". 

She was looking at me and I called her name.. Nilima... Nilima what happened??

She: nothing.. I m feeling sleepy main thodi der soti hu..

Me: yeah no problem... 

Next morning I woke up it was around 7:45 am. I could still hear the rain. What I saw next was really surprising. 

I saw Nilima standing at the window watching the rain with a cup of tea in her hand. 

I went towards her she saw me and then..

She: chai banayi hai.. have it.

Me: Nilima I know you will not wait now but I insist don't go without having breakfast. I will make it quickly. bina khaye mat jaana

She: Mohit want to ask you something.

Me: yes go ahead..

Whatever period we were together, did you ever felt whether I was a good wife?

Me: honestly speaking I never tried to judge or analyse between the good and the bad wife. I always loved being with you and that was the reason I wanted you for my entire life. we got married and after that things didn't go well between us but believe me even in that period I was trying to figure it out what can I do to make you feel better. even when you wanted to get separated I didn't stop you. All I wanted was if this is the thing which is going to solve your unhappiness then doesn't matter how much pain it would give me I will go through it.

She: Mohit I know it won't be enough but can a "sorry" be that bridge between us which will clear our distance towards each other.

I am really sorry Mohit. I wanted everything perfect I was running away from obstacles and forgot that we need to do adjustments to carry forward. Please give me one chance to make things better for us. I am aware now where I went wrong and what I need to do to correct the things. Please allow me... please.

She was crying and I was wondering what she spoke. My mind was running with a lot of thoughts. I was so surprised to see how all of a sudden time changed from destruction to a new beginning. I never expected this to happen and was really feeling a lot happier about it. Without saying a word I went towards her. held her face in my palm and cleared her tears. she looked at me and I just gave her a smile. She quickly released "her" from "herself" into my arms and then our love was ready to write another chapter in our life.