The Cherry Express - Chapter 2 - The Hell Loop

Abhay was on top of me kissing me passionately, I was moving my fingers along his masculine face. Suddenly I noticed something on my hand a kind of sticky substance, I turned on the table lamp, my hands were covered in a mix of blood and mud, it was from Abhay's face AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I screamed and woke up. It was a bad dream, I drank some water and slept again. The Cherry Express accident might have disappeared from the news but it still felt like a breaking news to my heart.

The next morning I was again in that same place, from last three months I have been to this office so frequently that it feels like even knowing the smell of this place. The opposite seat was still empty as it was the lunch break. After few minutes Durga Prasad(Government Officer) arrived, while scratching the food stain from his shirt without looking at me he said 'Madam I have been telling you the same thing from last three months, that the eligibility to get the funds is the proof, which is marriage certificate'. he licked the scratched food from his shirt and spoke again 'See madam, I believe you but the system needs proof'. I simply got up by saying 'I will come again till the government sanctions me money'. For the past eight months I have tried everything from visiting the government offices frequently, to writing e-mails to them, to tagging the state minister on Twitter explaining my issue of not having marriage certificate as the incident happened within three months of my marriage, but all in vain.

With Abhay gone, our lives have changed completely. Mom and Dad(in-laws) have nothing left in life, they pass each day wishing for their death. I am still living with past memories and I do have a lot of time to introspect myself. Sometime I think that I haven't cried too much on Abhay's death, I still remember when my uncle died, for next one year my aunt cried everyday and on every event. Also I feel like why I am so concerned about money, with Abhay gone, that money meant nothing. The loneliness has creeped in me so much that I have started a new habit of online dating but there is a catch in that also I only date guys with name as Abhay and that too I only prefer to talk online, sometime I also engage in sexting pretending as if I was talking to my Abhay at the other end.

Next week I was again in my hell loop, same place, same belongings, same faces and the same smell. But this time only one thing was different, Durga Prasad got really furious after seeing my face, straight away he started yelling 'WHAT DO YOU THINK, THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY WORK HERE, GO AWAY and DON'T COME BACK OR NEXT TIME I WILL CALL THE POLICE'. I didn't even move an inch and he did call the police. Next moment I was in jail with my father-in-law and lawyer who was explaining to inspector about some law and bailable offence.

It was there when I decided that I was not taking a step back and will fight for my rights till I die!

To be continued....