So Called Love

After love marriage Nisha and Soham living together at Krishna apartment. Now Nisha seems before marriage everything is better and evrything they do with full freedom. But nowdays Soham became callous and behaves like irresponsible. Every day he comes late in a tipsy state she worried a lot and cares for him too much. But he hates all this doings like childish. Already they had been discarded by their relatives cause they had done this marriage by eloping.

Now in this bondage Nisha feels lonely and as evening starts she scares and worries lot about Soham. She never think in dream he would change like this suddenly. She everyday thinks sitting beside window pane it is hard to pass the day and more than the night.

  As usual Soham boozed and came home she supports him at threshold but he refused to hold her hand.' I am not so cheap that anybody can dominate over me I will show them how I defeat them' 

Soham murmuring until he fell on bed.

'Are you ok Soham? What is wrong with you? Why you gets drunk always?

'Questions lot of questions life is full of questions so I would throw it in one corner this goddamned status!

He threw his coat in corner.

You are not dining with me?

Yes! dine with you you would feed me like my mother and I am your child so nice love.ha!ha!!

 Yes I am hungry! Your love is hungry never say love is thirsty have you Nisha ever heard love is hungry like wolf

'What are talking rubbish Soham?

'No not rubbish at all it is true love is hungery can you love me in starvation?. Can you love me in famine? Tell me Nisha are you?

'I like to sleep close hug to you then I could forget all burden

'Hi Soham, I. am close to you now 'don't ask me questions let us sleep calmly. Please switch off the lights. So we can forget our faces because either we are faceless or have many faces, death also confuse whom to kill today? Oh very nice life we have no face. True love never has face. Because it loves truely. That's it your honour. And he fiercely usrup her and devour her body with kisses. But this play end soon and he fell asleep without talking her perceptions of life and Nisha stared at ceiling fan. And her mind full with doubts and questions and she dare not ask him right question her lips tremble as if she muttered it, are you gay or impotent? My choice is infallible. How can it be possible?

   That day no longer she asked him same question at one night and she asked him and why you so stressed and booze daily?

I will kill him if dominating over me as office bully and you dare to ask me am I impotent or gay?

You must know the reason why I am so depressed that made me impotent to love you serve you. 

Would you prefer me to be underdog of anybody? I won't lose my self respect at any cost. You know how worst beside world they are degrading others to get promotion. They are so shameless

Pimps. It is better we should not talk. To protect my self respect I will throw resignation on his face but never before teach them lesson.

     'Don't do something I dislike and hurt my heart. Nisha trying to pacify his anger and hate.

 No, I will never do what you dislike, I will cringe and coddle their ego. That going to defeat and destroy my honesty. 

  And what is love not big than the hunger of daily bread and breed later I never found paradise or heaven anywhere but serving as a slave we call it devotion.love is not that magic which prepares a dish on the table in one tichki. Whatever they have said is only impossible illusions only where nobody could reach.

All these doggerel dreams of the poet

What nobody could accomplish.

Okay, do you find is there anything partial in our love? Am I liar and dishonest with you ever?

No, but I realize how and on what love can stand firmly. That bitter fact we overlook and only songs, costume and dance is all that love

They never showed what they do the job to serve love each other? I need my love stress free and not reverting begging like a slave.

'That is over, now listen it never begs but face all problems stand firmly on own legs. What you are talking was basic needs. So I warn you not to do anything that hurts me? 

Ok. You also command on me

'No not commanding but requesting

Days will not remain the same tomorrow it would change. Be patient.

Soham smiled sarcastically.

'You said kill yourself mentally and keep mouth shut whether they castrate. You degrade, mock on you. You also laugh even they kick on your ass that's what you meant

Say thanks for the advice. Wait and see days would change".

  After one-week police van came

And handcuffed Soham in case of the brutal murder of senior officer