September 22 my special day

My special day, September 22

This date holds a lot of meaning for me, in good ways and in bad.

On September 22,1980 my father passed away, he was only 45 years old. My world as I knew it changed forever and I was never the same. They say that time heals all wounds, yeah, maybe...but not when it comes to losing a parent. I still miss him, even now, all these years later.

But the date, that horrible date that used to make me cry, now holds other meanings for me as well. It once signified death and pain for me, but it has come to signify life and rebirth for me. On that same date many years later, September 22 was the date I signed my lease on my new home and started my new life, finally freeing myself from my horrible marriage.

I prayed for so long for a home for me and my girls and what day did I get it? Yes, you guessed it, September 22. I knew my father was looking down on me on that day as I was signing my lease. Believe it or not, that day was also the day I also sold my business, a business that I had only had started less than a year before. What was I really selling? Why did he want to buy it? I actually thought I was being punked! But God, here I was making a deal to sell it and stay on as a consultant for a large amount of money each week. I was also getting 2 weeks paid vacation and paid holidays just what I was praying for while I was going through this divorce. I needed a way to take care of me and my girls since I got no alimony and only 250.00 a month child support for my 2 girls. 

I am here to tell you that prayer works and dreams can come true. Yes, I had walked out on faith, I got nothing but here I was being taken care of by God, and you ask me why my faith is so strong? Honey please, if he did this then there is nothing God can't do.

A year later I decided to get Baptist in our church, and yes, you guessed it, it happened to be September 22. This was a special day for me as I found this church when I had hit rock bottom. This church and these people who I came to call my church family literally saved my life. This was a huge step for me, to give my life over to God in front of all that I loved and especially doing it with the women who brought me there in the first place. To me all of these things meant that even though my father wasn't here, he was always looking down and looking after me.

Were all these things coincidences? Well, you can say so but I know better. 

I know it's my dad making sure I am all right. I know there are always two ways to look at things, either you can see them as a negative or you can look at them in a  positive light, the choice is up to you.

I chose to look at this date with remembrance to my dad, to a wonderful man and father who was taken too soon but left me a lifetime of wonderful memories. I look at this date as my life changer, a date for significant change and growth in my life. A date that now lets me know I can do anything, I can manifest anything, and that I can know it will be alright because he is always there for me.

So today my friends, remember that your parents will not be here forever, spend as much time with them as possible. Call them every day, tell them you love them because one day they will be gone and you never want to live with regret. But also know this, as parents they will always look out for you, they will always be there, even if they aren't here  physically, anymore.

Today I dedicate this blog to my wonderful father in heaven. A father that drove 3 hours every Sunday to see me made me his special pancakes every weekend. A father who was above all fathers, that paid child support above and beyond what he was supposed to. A father that paid for my clothes, doctors, dentists, camp, dance lessons and anything else I needed or wanted. A father who despite divorce put me first all the time. A father that made me laugh, taught me culture, who gave me my love for the city and cars. He taught me hard work, to value your things and that no matter what, you never say anything bad about your ex to your children, ever.

Thank you for always looking out for me, for letting me know that even though you're not here physically, I know that spiritually, you will always be here for me.

I miss you every day...

I love you daddy, now always and forever.

"Be the change you want to see"

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