Pursuing your purpose

I talk a lot about pursuing your purpose as I feel that it is your God given gift. This is what you are meant for, what you are called to do.

I remember years ago at Louise Hay's You can do it conference my friend turned and looked at me and said "I see you on the stage doing this" 

I looked at her like she has lost her mind, I said that could ever do that but she said "You have something to say, you have a story to tell people, I see you doing it" 

They say it only takes a spark to start a fire, well that was the spark that started the fire in me.

I thought about it and the more I thought, the more it seemed possible. Yet I still thought about my fear of public speaking, in college I took a public speaking class and I wanted to puke every time it was my turn to give my speech. I sweated, my legs got shaky, and I swore that I would pass out, so how could I even entertain the thought of becoming a public speaker? The same way I got over my fear of heights, I jumped out of a plane, yup, cured that!

At that time I thought that I would worry about it when it came to that, but for now at least I had started thinking about it. She had planted the seed in my head, I didn't know how I would get there, or what it would look like, all I knew was that I wanted to help others. I knew there was a reason I went through all I went through, I knew it wasn't for nothing. I wanted to inspire others, I was making it out and I wanted to, no… needed to, share my message and this was a perfect way to do that.

So the following week I decided to put it on my vision board. I envisioned it while I was meditating, I saw it just as real as if I was doing it. I prayed on it and then God spoke to me about starting my blog, it was my first step to get to this dream.

I wasn't ready then and God knew it, of course I didn't. I, again like everything in my life, wanted it to come now, but I wasn't done learning my lessons yet.

I now realize that I needed to find myself more, I needed to know I could do this on my own. At that point, I was still in that horrible marriage, I couldn't tell people how great life could be when I didn't know myself. I started writing my blog to talk to others about starting to take your power back (at least I knew about that) to have faith, to believe even when you are in your darkest hour (Well, I definitely knew about that)

It wasn't until I walked away knowing I would be fine. Knowing that I had faith in a God I could not see but knew that he would take care of me. It was only then that he saw that I was ready. He knew when I let go of the anger and hate, he knew when I forgave my ex and owned what I did. He knew I would spill my guts in my blog so that I may help someone else who was in that dark place, he knew my heart and my purpose as he gave me this gift.

It was then that he started to open doors for me. I did a few testimonies at church, my voice cracked, my knees shook, I felt like I was dying but I did it. I remember when I was asked to give announcements on a Sunday, Hello! 

For those of you who don't know, I worship at the Faith Center formerly the Sunrise Musical Theater, a huge 3500 seat church and on a Sunday it is a packed house. Omg, I was scared, but I thought well you are getting me ready, so I will do this.

I then got asked to speak at a singles conference, still nervous but getting better. I remember like it was yesterday when I knew this was my calling, it was as a speaker at a Domestic Violence conference. I finally knew my purpose, sitting on that stage, I knew what my friend said to me all those years before and look at that, this had come to pass.

I wasn't nervous, I was me. I made people laugh, I made people gasp, I think some people cried, I told them of what got me through and how peace and joy were in my life now. I was confident in my purpose, I felt my gift at its full potential. 

I knew this was for me as afterwards so many people came to me and told me how much my story touched them, how my courage was inspiring! I was blown away, it made me cry. Wow, this is what I put out there so long ago, this is my purpose beyond a shadow of a doubt, this is it!

Do I have any doubt that my books will be New York Times bestsellers? Absolutely not!

Will I be on stages all over the world? Will I be on the Women of Faith tour, telling hundreds of thousands of women how anything is possible if you have faith? Will I be an international blogger, telling others that if you put it out there, if you work hard and if you believe, that anything is possible? Oh yes, I believe that it is all possible and more! 

I know that covid put a stop to all our lives, but I look at it as a reset, to give us a gift, time with our families, to see what is really important in our lives and to teach us to help one another out. I am ready to hit it again, starting with a free zoom event on September 21 and our live event TBA in January. Stay tuned for more details.

So today my friends, I must give thanks once again to God. He knew better than I did when I was ready. I thank him for starting that spark in me and always believing in me, even when I didn't believe in myself.

Remember we are here to uplift each other, to inspire, to give hope and encourage each other when we are down. This is all of our purposes in this life.

So dream big!! Help a friend dream big today and never stop believing!

"Be the change you want to see"

@Treadmilltreats