Love, Not Anymore

Leaving you have changed me drastically, I no longer trust people, all I can see is the mean bone behind their smiles, I search patience with a vengeance, calm with anxiousness and love by your name. I don’t listen to my old playlist anymore, I skip songs that remind me of you or that bench past college gate or coffee or the bridge you promised me forever at. I skip everything that reminds me of you also I skip breathing sometimes.

I loved you enough to let go and you said it won’t change and you left on a normal day, do not come back. You left me, without any closure, just like a bee leaving it’s comb promising honey and never coming back, and I like a bee, kept waiting in that comb believing that, maybe one day you will come back.

But you never did, and that was the very day, I stopped believing in love.