Living in the moment

I have learned a lot in the last ten years but the biggest lesson I have learned is to live in the moment. Life is too short... you never know when your time is up or when you will lose a loved one. 

I lived a life I hated for so long, a life filled with fear, filled with trying to be someone I was not. 

I vowed when I closed the door on that old life that I was going to live in the moment for me, I was going to "be" me and I was going to live life large! 

Now, in this life, I stop while I am in the moment to savor the feelings of joy. To really enjoy the love and to remember how truly blessed I am. It is then, when you step back with a heart full of gratitude, that you know you are living in the moment. 

This last year and a half, not being able to see friends, to go traveling, to do the things I loved to do, has reinforced this gratitude. Yet through this all, I still felt gratitude, I was grateful that my girls and I were spared. I was grateful I could keep my home and be able to have some savings to cover my bills while I wasn't working. I was grateful that I got to spend quality time with my girls and with close friends. This is what it really means to live a life of gratitude, that even in your storms you still find things to be grateful for.

This past year I have been overwhelmed with emotions of what was going on in our world. The hatred, the racism, the selfish attitude of so many people.

But it also showed me kindness, compassion, and togetherness as we stood by each other, fought against evil and showed the world what we were made of.

Even through all of these storms, I was still praying and thanking God for his goodness because I know where I've been. I know the black holes I pulled myself from, I know the sadness and the despair I used to live in.

This has all been so different from my old life, this takes gratitude to a whole new level, as I could never repay him for his goodness and mercy over my life. 

So I now live in the moment, truly being present, enjoying the time I spend with my loved one's, time spent together, not looking into the future, not thinking about the what if's, just enjoying the now. 

So today my friends, stop analyzing things, stop worrying about tomorrow and live in the now...live in the moment...live life large.

"Be the change you want to see"