Leap Of Faith

Sometimes it is hard to comprehend why I am feeling what I am feeling. It just does rounds in my head, time and again leaving me nauseated. It doesn't feel good to be there, to be submitting to all these emotions all at once, we are supposed to do all the things we must to make ourselves feel the higher self that only knows joy, unconditional love and boundless potential. Let me tell you, I have made a few human connections in this while, discovering how life unfolds.

Of these few human connections some are adored to the bones whereas some dumped in the darkest dungeons of my heart. I always believed I am all for love, all for calmness and composedness right when I had this voice vague yet awakening made me realize I have this heap of emotions, waves of restlessness like some wild fire thriving within. All that I do to this date has somewhere my emotions working its way through me. Like for instance you go open chats of someone, scroll it top to bottom, construct a line of greetings out of the confines of their relationship with you, erase a word or two. Type that again only to Backspace it all.

This moment whilst you were busy fighting a battle within yourself you see that person online, the status doesn't flicker for quite sometime and the pressure is all built up inside of you, your heart thumping loud against your chest, the status changes from online to away. You lived a whole lot of conversation you would have rather had. Before it flickers I want you to cease the moment, for your sake, do something of it, let alone type a "Hi" rather.

Just let me know how did that feel. I am yet to type a message, just let me know how you went from Hi to an endless battle of how intensely you missed each other to that never ending rage within you for holding this person for as long as you breathe. Wearing heart on your sleeves? Don't brush that off under carpet because you are seamlessly waiting for it to reveal. It is one life, it has got to be only beautiful.