I Found Myself

Searching, wandering, wondering 

"Who Am I"

What was purpose of my life?

Why some peoples are familiar?

Why some are familiar but feel like unfamiliar?

Why I keep hearing some voice?

Why Some music haunts me?

Inside some an unwanted pain I was suffering

An unwanted pain,

An unwanted scenario

An unwanted nightmares

It killed me from inside

I was finding me....

The places I never visited it kept on apperinh infront of my eyes through my dreams

I was not able to live as being normal human

Black clouds, blinking street lights, loud thunderstorm noise with rain, it filled my heart with sorrow and pain

I wanted to cry loudly, but I kept on hiding my feelings which was more burden in my head

The things were normal if I would ever shared they would thing I am gone insane

I kept this to me only

I had taken step to solve my problem by myself, but first I havd made up mind 

I ll bravely see Who was I

The journey began of Finding exactly 

"Who am I "?

I had gone very deeper to find me, to find my reality

Which pain I had carried in my mind from the day I was born 

The pain which my eye saw at present days or something mysterious

Even when I look into the mirror

I wanted to feel me, I wanted to find my real identity

I was curious about myself

Why every evening made me more upset 

Specially if the evening turned into reddish or pinkish.

I never knew that time 

Why I cried unnecessarily

Then one day I saw inside in myself the truth

I reincarnated again with bitter truth of my past

An old soul born with upgraded mind and body

To complete her incomplete task again....

To live her life with peace and love

To lead her life again 

Educating many children with positive vibes

To guide others with spreading smiles love and joy

Learned lesson from her past

Being innocent being silent can kill 

Innocent people, can lost their loved once in front of their eyes

Being weak can take advantage by others

Being scared can make you suffer more

Self defence is very important,

I learned that day, being silent can create lots of mess, if something wrong is happening raise your voice because in that situation

You may get killed too

Live your life with by being you

By being Who are you

Dont get trapped just because of some peoples , never underestimate your own will power

So again universe had blessed me with this precious life of mine

Born with smart brave savage nature

Atlast I found myself

I found my answer

" Same face, same body, with different outfits, cultures, religion, language, country in this 21st century"

Such an amazing updated life now am living

Compared to the past

Where surrounded in dark, dim lantern

Waited for early morning to see the colourful world, but where peoples mind filled with trash of racism, casteism, people killed each other just because their caste didn't match with their life

Innocents were killed harshly just because they were born in another community

Everyone says old days are gold, yeah must be, but for me the reality was literally different, the gold knows the pain he had suffered so much, gold was twisted bended, it has to go through many pains 

I am happy being in present moment where am right now, Now I dont have to wait till morning to see the light

Born in 21st century, electronic world

Where I can send my message, writing about me

And your the one who must be reading 

And must be thinking 

Is this real or just she had written!

Feeling like to laugh to that few people, to that few community such dumb they were

Who had killed me

Look am born again and now you cant even touch me or see me because you all already turned into trash

I am thankful to my nightmare,

I found myself and being loving myself more

And being more careful with the surroundings