HARIHARAN

NOTE: This story is based on Author's fiction. It doesn't apply to any historical references or real-life incidents.

08 JULY 2025

COIMBATORE DISTRICT

The freedom of the open road is seductive, serendipitous and absolutely liberating. Around 7:45 AM, Hariharan was travelling in car towards his hometown Coimbatore. On the front seat, his close friend Hemanth was driving the car. While, Nithish was sitting in the left seat. On the back seat, Hariharan, his elder brother Adhithya and Kamalesh were travelling.

At that time, Adhithya looks at Hariharan. He asked him: "How was this trip da Hari?"

Without any single hesitations, Hari replied him: "Brother. There's an unspoken bond you create with the friends you travel with." All of them were travelling happily in the car towards Erode district.

But life can change in an instant, and often without warning. When Hemanth was driving the car slowly, he notices a lorry coming faster towards their. Upon looking at the lorry, Adhithya warned Hemanth about the lorry by telling him: "Hey hey…Lorry da. Be careful."

However, it was too late. The lorry has already hit their car. The front side of the car was severely damaged. On the back side, Hariharan, Adhithya and Kamalesh were laying unconscious. People rescued the car with the help of police. An ambulance came for taking the five people to KMCH hospitals of Coimbatore.

There, Hariharan and Kamalesh's friends Rahul, Harijth, Jerome and Sruthika came with the five people's parents. At the same time, the doctors checked the pulse of the five people.

Upon checking, one of the doctor said by looking at Nithish: "I am sorry sir. He is already dead." Sruthika started crying upon hearing the shocking news. To everyone's luck, Hariharan, Adhithya, Hemanth and Kamalesh had the possibilities for survival with serious health condition.

In the ICU room, Hariharan was unconscious. At that time, a girl's memories haunted him and he suddenly woke up. However, the doctors controlled him by giving anesthesia.

"Accidents can strike at any moment, leaving us shaken and changed. The unexpected can happen to anyone, at any time. Before she entered my life, my life was totally different and I was completely a different person."

(The story moves to First-person narration from the perspective of Hariharan)

FEW YEARS BACK

2005-2023

My father Vishnuvardhan was a richest businessmen in Coimbatore with a net worth of $5.8 billion. He is the chairman of the Vardhan group, a diversified conglomerate with interests in sugar, cycles and lending. Our's company is 124-year old Indian conglomerate and we are present across India and globally. As my father came through hardships and struggles, he is often strict in the family.

In our family, my mother Lakshmi is the main pillar. She is an ardent devotee of Lord Vishnu. She often shares me the stories of Bhagavad Gita, Ramayanam, Mahabharata and Puranas. But, my mother was very strict to me. Only my father was fond and affectionate. However, to Adhithya, my father was very strict, due to which, he studied well and completed his Master of Business Administration in Chennai's IIM.

After my father, Adhithya was everything to me. He is a 90's kid. Yes, born on 1999. While I am a 2K kid born in the year 2000. For me, having a brother is like having a built-in best friend. Adhithya taught me the quotes of Bhagavad Gita. He was an ardent follower of Adi Shankaracharya's philosophies. My childhood days was completely a darkest phase. At that time, Adhi was my main pillar. Since, my father was busy in developing his business empire to the next level.

I grown in my mother Lakshmi's family. It consisted of my grandmother, grandfather and other relatives. My grandparents were so attached to me and Adhithya. Often, my grandmother used to taunt Adhithya for all his mischievous activities.

Apart from my grandmother, there was a childhood friend. She was everything to me. Beyond friends, she was my crush. Her name is Aishwarya. Her face lit up with a warm smile, illuminating the room. Her eyes sparkled with kindness, and her laughter was infectious. As she spoke, her words were laced with wisdom and compassion, drawing people to her. Her bright hazel eyes sparkled with warmth. Her smile could light up a room. Her long, dark hair cascaded down her back like a waterfall, framing her heart-shaped face. Her fair skin had a warm, golden glow, complementing her natural beauty.

During my school days, Ishwarya was my main pillar. We were such a thick friends. We played tennis together, shared our lunch together and spent lots of time in tuition classes. Often, she visits my home. We slept in the same bed in night whenever my mother and family were absent. I did this with the help of Adhithya.

From 6th grade to 8th grade, Ishwarya and I were thick friends. Thick friends are the ones who know everything about you and still like you. In the final terms of 8th grade, I suddenly fell ill. For the period of one week, I was absent in school. At that time, Ishwarya completed all my pending works by sitting in my home. She submitted all those on behalf of me in the class. I can't forget all those things in my life.

Things took a turn on the 6th day of my illness. Everyone(including Adhithya) went out of the house in order to attend the important business ceremony of my father Vishnuvardhan in Hyderabad. At that time, only me and Ishwarya were there. Since, her family also went to Hyderabad. As usual, I was severely ill. I slept in the bed. But, within few minutes, I woke up due to severe headache and feel of vomiting. Yet, I slept for two hours until 7:15 PM.

Around 7:30 PM, Ishwarya woke me up and said: "Hari. Come and eat something da." However, I was feeling painful and tired. I said: "No Ishu. You eat. I can't."

"Don't sleep with empty stomach da." I reluctantly ate. But, within few minutes of eating, I vomited and said to Ishwarya: "I already said la. I don't feel like eating. Let me sleep."

I went for sleep. While, Ishwarya completed eating. After washing the plates, she came near to me and sat in the bed. But, I was so concerned and worried about her.

I said: "Ishu. You go and sleep peacefully. If you are near to me, my fever will spread to you." She gently caressed my hair and said: "I'll take care." She took me to her laps. However, I wasn't feeling sleepy.

Realizing this, Ishwarya lays near to me in the bed. As she was near to me, I looked at her fair face and said: "Hey Ishu. Today, you are stunning. Your beauty lights up the room."

"Is that so?" Ishwarya asked with a laughter, to which I replied: "Yes indeed. You are gorgeous and your beauty is more than just skin-deep. Your body is amazing. You're so fucking and amazing. You're so sexy. I want to touch you all over. I love how you look right now."

Going near to her face, I told her to close her eyes, lay back and take a deep breath. I told her, "I want you to feel absolutely incredible. Just lay back and feel my hands all over your soft skin." I played a soft and sexy music in the TV to create a calming atmosphere.

Now, I started to play with her fingers. After running my fingers on Ishwarya's arms and legs, I massaged her back. Then, I started kissing her neck, cheek and her ear. I was much satisfied when I nibbled and licked her ears. I continued to kiss her in the collarbone. Then, I softly kissed her lips. With my tongue, I kissed her lips more passionately. Looking at Ishu's face, I started to caress her face by brushing her hair out of her eyes. Then, I ran my hands through her hair, outer thighs, inner thighs, stomach, waist, ass, breast and chest respectively. Now, I traced her hips and waistline with my fingers. After kissing her stomach, breasts and panty lines, I lifted her to the bed.

Closing ourselves with a blanket, I and Ishwarya hugged each other. After rubbing her clitoris, I again kissed in Ishwarya's lips until it became dry. After licking her vagina and navel, I removed her shirts to expose her skin. After removing her shirts, I removed her panties and underwear. Now, I myself removed my dresses. We both were nude inside the blanket. I saw her body when she tried to hide her organs. I started teasing the bare skin around and on Ishwarya's vaginal lips. Now, I started moving in and out of her body by keeping my hands on her chest. She was enjoying the move with her killing expressions. I tried to violate her even more. But, both of us were exhausted and tired. I slept on the top of Ishwarya's hot body after enjoying the sex for twenty minutes.

After the sex, I and Ishwarya were in fear and regret. We both were looking at each other in tears and shock. Ishwarya cried when she was sleeping on my top. I said: "Sorry Ish. Out of infatuation and lust, I did a big mistake."

But, Ishwarya said: "It's ok. I too was a part of this mistake right. Let's forget this incident and move on. Don't worry about it." She cried aloud by hugging me with pain and agony.

"Hari. Will you do one thing to me?" asked Ishwarya to which, I asked: "Yes."

"Don't ever leave me at any situation da. Always be there with me in tougher period of times." I kissed her cheeks and said: "You are my best friend di. I will always be there with you. It's my promise!"

FEW YEARS LATER

2016, ERODE DISTRICT

Slowly, we both fell in love when we were in our 9th grade. Day by day, I grew stronger in my academics. Since, I travelled in buses than in cars, I loved to explore the TNSTC town buses, that will soon be transferred from Erode to Coimbatore for a few period of time. When I was in 10th grade, my love for Ishwarya grew stronger and passionate. I discussed with her about my plans of travelling, after which she also expressed her desires to travel with me.

After completing my public exams successfully, I was executing my plans to travel in buses. But, my mother foiled the plans. She forbids me to travel despite Adhithya's request to let me go free. Ishwarya was restricted for the next one month. This angered me. I developed hatred for my mother and father, without understanding why they did this to me. I lost all the town buses, I loved and travelled a lot.

As a result of losing the lovable ones, I had an deep emotional turmoil. A ray of past town buses sounds, gears and pictures came in my mind. It created more pains in me. I experienced intense feelings of anger, frustration and irritability. I fought with Adhithya, my father and my mother aggressively. Day by day, my behavior was worse. Whenever I look at the quotes, "In search of gold, we lost diamonds" I become aggressive. The town buses resonated deeper into my heart.
Without my father's knowledge, Adhithya took me to a hospital for consulting a doctor. The doctor conducted an analysis and confirmed that I am suffering from Intermittent Personality disorder, which came as a result of my frequent anger and aggression along with my refusal to accept that things are temporary in our life.

Later my psychological disorder went to the next level. As Ibwent to the extreme of foiling my mother's plans to go for Tirupathi temple with Ishwarya's family by stealing the money and keeping it in Adhithya's purse. 

But, Ishwarya managed to resolve the issues. At this point of time, my anger was in peak. I shouted at my father and Adhithya. After fighting with them, I went to my room by saying: "None should come for a while."

I started consuming soft drinks on a larger quantity that night to overcome my psychological disorder after knowing from Adhithya that there's no treatment, but only counselling and medication for the disorder. Seeing that, Ishwarya came near to me and said: "No Hari. You shouldn't do this." But without listening to her words, I again consumed the drinks.

"Are you angry that I supported your mother?" With an aggressive look at her, I continued drinking my soft drinks. But, Ishwarya lost her patience and plucked the soft drinks from me. I went near to her and said: "Give it to me Ish. You know my level of anger. If I don't get this now, I don't know what I will do."

With mocking laughter, she replied: "I won't give it to you Hari. Let's speak for a while. Then, you can have this drink." But, I grabbed her hands tightly.

"Leave me Hari. It's paining." Ishwarya cried.

"I told you softly right. Then for what a hair, you mocked me di!" As I plucked the soft drinks forcibly, it fell down and broke in the floor. Thankfully, Adhithya and my father were sleeping peacefully. The sounds didn't disturb them.

Ishwarya said to me: "The decisions in anger will lead to destructions like this." This peaked the level of my anger. I slapped Ishwarya in her left cheeks by saying: "Philosophical dialogues ah?"

As she had tears in her eyes, I again slapped her in the right cheeks. I said in a loud voice: "Saying philosophy ah di? Ah? I am crying in pain of losing the most loved thing in my life di. You are allowing my mother to go where she likes to go. But me alone, a fool right? I am a fool a di?" I again slapped her harder for more than five times in the left and right cheeks. Ishwarya kneels down in the floor and cried aloud because of the pain in her cheeks. She was completely heartbroken. She was angry on me for slapping her.

But my anger wasn't reduced. When Ishwarya tried to go out, I grabbed her by saying: "Where are you going di? Don't go anywhere. Stay here itself today."

"Hari. Don't do anything. Please." But, I pushed her up against a wall. She was in a rude shock when I did it. She said: "No Hari." But, I pressed my boner against her. With my bulge ribs against her clit, I grinded on her.

"No Hari. Please." Without listening to her pleads and fears, I grabbed her wrists. I pinned it over her head. She realized how strong and big I am. I kissed her all over the body. After kissing her, I thrust my tongue inside of her mouth. I moaned like I have just tasted the best thing in my life. Now, I pushed Ishwarya's head to the side in order to suck and nibble on her neck. I started biting her shoulder after nibbling to make her gasp. Then, I undressed Ishwarya by removing her dark blue sari. I didn't wait for her to undo her bra herself or pull down her jeans. I was the one in charge. I thought I am the one to tear off her clothes. I didn't wait for another second to stick my cock in her.

I tore away her bikini, bra and skirts and threw it in the floor. She was standing nude in front of me. I too undressed myself. This time, Ishwarya threw away her anxiety and fear upon seeing me nude. She came near to me with a romantic look and hugged me. She kissed in my lips passionately.

"Hari. Let's have violent sex today. I love you so much." Ishwarya hugged me. She again kissed on my lips passionately. Now, I threw her onto the bed. I didn't place her down tenderly, like she's a piece of glass I am worried about shattering. I gently shove her onto the blankets and then climb on top of her to do all the work myself. After licking her navel and vagina, I grabbed her waist while I was thrusting her. I was holding her tightly as I can. It left bruises in her body. After that, I lightly choked her and continued to have the violent sex for the whole night. Then, we slept together.

Following this sex episode, I slowly realized that my anger is eating the life of Ishwarya. I started isolating myself from everyone with much focus on academics. Because I felt I am causing harm to others. I felt remorseful, guilty and ashamed of my behavior towards Ishwarya during the violent sex although she didn't feel bad. Not only remorse, I was responsible for every mishaps and problems in everyone's life. Because of me everyone including Adhithya was suffering. I can't say the psychological problems to my Ishu. As she won't bear to hear that shocking disorder in me. To ensure her happiness and prosperity, I decided to end my relationship with her keeping the state of her welfare in my mind.

TWO YEARS LATER, 2018

SITRA, COIMBATORE DISTRICT

As I stopped talking with her, Ishwarya tried to rekindle the relationship. At this period of time, both of us were expecting for 12th results. We strongly believed that 12th results is the only hope for a good admission in Coimbatore's one of the most reputed colleges. Before resolving our issues, she decided to accompany her father's spiritual trip to Srisailam during the 12th grade holidays. After finishing the trip, she came back to Coimbatore railway station. I was eagerly waiting in my house to see her. When Ishwarya was returning with her mother and father, she meets with an sudden accident. In that, her father and mother died on the spot. While, Ishwarya was admitted in a critical health condition at KMCH hospitals.

I prayed that she should come back. I requested my father and Adhithya to save her at any cost. We expected for her survival. When I was looking at the doctors in tears, I soon grabbed his hands and asked: "What happened doctor? Will she survive?"

The doctors looked at Vishnuvardhan and said: "Sorry sir. She's braindead." I was in the peak of anger. My hands were in the doctor's shirt. When he said that she's braindead again, I was holding his shirt's collar once again in anger. Adhithya controlled me at that point of time.

Holding Adhithya's hands, I begged him by saying: "Save her da. She's my life. I want her." At this point of time, my father and mother realized that I and Ishwarya loved each other. With tears, both of them consoled me. At the same time, the doctor said about an 18-year old heart patient Vaishnavi Vaidhyanadhan, to whom an urgent heart transplant is needed. For that, they asked for Ishwarya's heart.

Adhithya consoled me to give Ishwarya's heart. With a heavy heart, I agreed and signed the papers in tears and pain. My Ishwarya's heart is going to live in the heart of another person forever although she will leave this world. During her funeral process, I completely broke down. Adhithya, my mother Lakshmi and my father were the ones to console me.

Years went on like such and I was in my college.

PRESENT

4:30 AM, 09 JULY 2025

(First person narration ends here)

"The unexpected nature of accidents reminds us to be prepared for anything." Hariharan was thinking about this at present. He, Adhithya and Kamalesh were transferred to the normal ward from ICU, the next day. But, Hemanth was still in the ICU. After regaining the consciousness, Hariharan looked at Adhithya and asked him: "Where's Hemanth and Nithish da? You and Kamalesh alone are there here."

Both Adhithya and Kamalesh were in uncontrollable tears. They holds Hariharan's hands. Hari tried to get up from the bed despite been stopped by the duo. He asked for a wheel chair. Since, his hands and legs were fractured in the accident. Unable to see his suffering, Adhithya said: "Hari. Nithish is dead da. He died on the spot in that accident."

"Hemanth is still in the ICU. Doctors didn't say anything about his health condition." Kamalesh also said to Hariharan. Tears filled in Hari's eyes. He bursts out and cried aloud. Only Adhithya consoled him. While, Vishnuvardhan and Lakshmi remains silent.

Looking at Adhithya, Vishnuvardhan said: "Look Adhithya. If we go deep into any subjects, the remaining thing will be only zero. Remind your younger brother that he is near to that zero." Adhithya was asked to accompany them after he recovers from the accident.

Hari requests Adhithya to go with Vishnuvardhan to avoid earning his wrath. Four days later, doctors informed that Hemanth is brain-dead. Upon hearing the news, Hariharan recalled the diary of Ishwarya in which she told: "Wherever I go, you will never forget me Hari. Your heart will always think about me. Even if I die, I will live in someone's heart as yours. I always love you. Muah!"

Hariharan asked the doctors to complete all the legal formalities in tears. He left the place in wheel chair with Kamalesh to meet Nithish and Hemanth's family members. There, their parents holds Hari's hands and cried in tears. It made him emotional. Their girls friend circle also broke down emotionally. After the funeral of Hemanth and Nithish, Hariharan looked at their photos during the last farewell of their UG days and recalls his college life after the death of Ishwarya.

(The story will be from the perspective of Hariharan. Explained in first-person narration)

JULY 2018

COIMBATORE

"College is not just about getting a degree. It's just about discovering yourself. The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." When I was going towards my B.Com(Corporate Secretaryship)- B section, my HOD mam was addressing this speech to our students. Our section is an aided department. While, there's also an SF class and it's categorized as A section.

I didn't hesitate to interact with my friends. I became friends with Nithish, Kamalesh, Hemanth, Rahul and girls circles- Preethi, Pooja, Dharshini and Varshini. As days passed, we formed a gang and became close friends. We shared lunch together, went for movies and enjoyed partying. I started taking alcohol and substance abuse in order to forget Ishwarya.

My friends were feeling pity on me upon learning my Ishu's death. On the fourth day, I met my second love. She is Vaishnavi. She is silent, naïve and innocent girl. Though she was from a conservative Iyengar family background, her family gave her all sorts of freedom to explore the world.

Without any reasons, I was close with Vaishnavi. We soon started going out in scooter. I spent a lot of time with her even though I was the class representative in 1st year and 2nd year. During our interactions, Vaishnavi told me that she was having a heart disease and one brain-dead patient gave her heart to save her life. This made me emotional and I said: "It was my dead lover Ishwarya only Vaishu."

Vaishnavi embraced me emotionally. She said: "I used to feel why I am more attached to you. Now, I understood the reasons. Your lover still lives in my heart da." I realized that she loves me for my character and carefree nature.

But, I had big aspirations to complete my professional course. Yes. I was doing my Company secretary course. In 2nd year, I successfully applied for Executive program and I was focused to complete it on time. After much hesitations and refusal, I eventually accepted Vaishnavi's love. Our relationship grew stronger day by day.

One day, during a party, I and Vaishnavi got drunk in a party. As we were totally drunk, my friend Kamalesh took us to a room so that we both can rest there. I and Vaishnavi were layin in the bed. However, I was intoxicated due to the excessive alcoholism. So, I tried to distance myself from Vaishnavi. At that time, she put her hands on me and said in an intoxicated state: "Hey Hari. Don't go away from me. Stay with me da."

I realized that I am losing my sense and consciousness. In intoxicated state, I said: "I am there here di." I and Vaishnavi looked at each other romantically despite being in an intoxicated state.

Now, I passionately kissed in Vaishnavi's lips. After kissing her lips, I hugged Vaishnavi. Then, I came down and kissed in her neck. She was enjoying it in such an intoxicated state. Then, I bited her ears, collarbone, belly, stomach, naval, inner thighs, outer thighs, boobs and chest. In that bite, her organs were mildly injured. After biting her, I kissed and licked her in the same body parts, where I bited her.

Now I undressed myself. After undressing myself, I removed Vaishnavi's sari. As she looked at me with her killing romantic expressions, I took away her bra, bikini and skirts. Both of us were naked. I pulled her to the bed and closed ourselves with a blanket. Now I continued to kiss her all over the body. After kissing her, I moved in and out of her body to pass my semen inside her vagina. Then, I vigorously licked her vagina and navel. After having sex, I slept on the top of her hot body. Vaishnavi was enjoying the intimacy due to the intoxication.

The next day, I was remorseful for the night. Vaishnavi cried silently by laying in the bed. I kissed her neck and said not to cry though I too was guilty and anger for the previous night's incident. She hugged me and cried louder.

"I did a big mistake Hari. This should have happened after marriage. But we did this in haste."

"It's just an accident due to intoxication, Vaishu. Leave it." I tried to console her. But Vaishnavi was feeling remorseful. She was more concerned about how the society will speak about her and her family for the incident. As I reassured her that I will always be supportive of her, she became calm. Vaishu emotionally embraced me with tears of happiness. 

"Let's forget the previous night. From now, we should never ever drink alcohol nor attend parties Hari. For both of us, yesterday's incident is just an accident. Okay?" I agreed to her requests. She pulled me into the blanket and slept on the top of my body for two hours until Kamalesh woke us from the deep sleep.

I had failed for two times in ACS Executive by trying to write for Module-1 and Module-2. Taking a break, I completed my 3rd year successfully with a job offer through campus placements. After my exams, I and Vaishnavi went for a long road trip to Vagamon along with Adhithya, Nithish, Hemanth and Kamalesh.

While booking the room, I said to Adhithya and Kamalesh: "Hey guys. I want a separate room with my Vaishu."

"Then for us?" asked Adhithya to which, I replied: "You four book a separate room brother."

In the mindvoice, Kamalesh said: "Right uh. Today Hari has planned something big."

In Adhithya's ears, Kamalesh said: "Brother. I don't know what atrocities are going to happen today." By mimicking Hari's voice, Kamalesh said: "I think he will roam here and there in the room, sit and then say like this- Vaishu. Let's go out and have fun." Unable to control his laughter, Adhithya said: "Be quiet for sometimes da Kamalesh. If my younger bro hears this, he will thrash both of us."

"That's also right bro. There are chances for that. Why should I invite the problems!" When Kamalesh was telling this, Hemanth also said: "Dei. Within the city itself, one cannot buy a Honey itseems. Then how will he desire to buy and drink a milk in the outer state da."

"What? Drinking milk ah? Whose milk and what milk da? Girl's milk or boy's milk or multiple gender's milk?" asked Kamalesh to which the four guys laughed uncontrollably.

"I know you will drink which kind of milk da" said Adhithya, to which Hemanth laughed. At that time,  I and Vaishnavi returned back after booking the rooms. Kamalesh and Adhithya became quiet.

After giving the keys to Hemanth, I called Adhithya and Kamalesh personally by telling, "Come here da."

"Yes da." Both came near to me. I kicked the guys in their chick. By holding their chick, both Adhithya and Kamalesh went inside the room. When they went inside, Hemanth asked to Adhithya: "What happened brother?"

By holding the chick, Adhithya and Kamalesh replied him: "Nothing da. A small problem in my chick."

"To both of you, same problem ah?"

"Doesn't fever comes to same persons? Like such only, this also. Don't question frequently da. Let's rest for sometime." 

Meanwhile, I opened the room and the screenglasses in order to let the fresh air enter the room. Vaishnavi was enjoying the breath of fresh air and Vagamon viewpoint. After a few minutes, she refreshed herself by taking a hot bath. When she came back in a traditional blue sari attire, I was instantly smitten by her beauty. I went near to her and reminscanced about Ishwarya.

By looking at me with her bublicious eyes, my Vaishu asked me: "Why are you looking at me like such da?"

"I remembered Ishu, Vaishnavi. Once upon a time, she too wore this same blue sari during a festival time." I became emotional while telling this. She consoled me by holding my hands. As she hugged and embraced me with her love and affection, I gifted her a diagram portrait and a watch.

"I paid a legendary artist to paint your beautiful portrait Vaishu. He painted it. I paid ₹1,500 for that. See whether it's beautiful!" I said to her lovingly. Vaishnavi saw the portrait. She was emotional and hugged me in tears. But she slapped me hard.

"Why you slapped me di?" I asked with little tears to which, Vaishnavi jokingly replied: "Why did you spent this much expenses da?"

"All for you di. I love you." I hugged her again.

"You should not leave me forever. Will you always be there with me?" For this question, I said: "I am your Hariharan. I will never leave you at any point of time." I kissed Vaishu's forehead. 

I also said: "Actually I planned to gift the watch to my Ishu. But she died and her heart lives in your heart. So I thought it should be with you." Vaishnavi kissed my lips emotionally upon hearing this with lots of love and happiness.

But in extreme happiness, we were about to fall down in the floor. As I and Vaishu failed to notice the wet floor. Thankfully, the bed was nearer to the floor. We fell in the bed.

I looked at Vaishu looked romantically. She also looked at me with her romantic eyes. She said: "Today you are so amazing Hari."

"Damn you also look irresistible/so fucking amazing Vaishu. You're so beautiful and sexy. I want to touch you all over. As your body is amazing."

Tapping my chest, Vaishnavi laughed and replied: "Hmm...Naughty boy."

When Vaishnavi was about to leave from the bed, I holded her hands gaze. As she looked at me, I said to her: "Please don't go away Vaishu. Stay with me. I want to spend more time with you." As she sat near to me in the bed, I woke up and asked her to  in a soft and soothing tone.

"Close your eyes and lay back Vaishu." As I said so, she layed back in the bed without asking any questions. Now I told her to take a deep breath. After this, Vaishu asked me: "What do you want Hari?"

"I want you to feel absolutely incredible di Vaishu. All I want to do is worship every inch of your body. Just lay back and feel my hands all over your soft skin." For her mood, our environment plays a huge role in how we feel. If your room smells bad or looks bad, it's near impossible for a woman to truly unwind. I ensured that the room temperature is comfortable for both of us. Women struggle to be present and orgasm if it's too cold. Now I used dim lighting to set a relaxing vibe. After that I setted a clean and tidy atmosphere that feels welcoming and comfortable. Now I played a sexy music in the TV background to create a calming atmosphere. 

Once upon a time I read a quote said by Esther Perel. She said: "Erotic intelligence is about creating and maintaining a connection that is both emotional and sexual. It is about playfulness, curiosity, imagination, and vulnerability."

Now, I slowly went near to my Vaishnavi in the bed. As she opened her eyes and looked at me, I started playing with her fingers. Running my fingers on her arms and legs, I massaged her back. Then, I kissed her neck and cheek. After nibbling, kissing and licking her ear, I softly kissed her collarbone and lips. In few seconds, I again kissed in Vaishnavi's lips with my tongue more passionately. Now I caressed her face by brushing her hair out of her eyes and stroking her cheek. Running my hands through her hair, I again started to trail my hands on her body and forehead. I kised her outer thighs, inner thighs, stomach/waist, ass, and chest/breasts after carassing them with my hands. Tracing her hips and waistline with my fingers I kissed her stomach, breasts, and panty line. Now, I removed her blue sari to expose her navel and skin. After kissing her navel, I took away her bikini, bra and skirts. Now, without a single dress, Vaishnavi was nude in the bed. She tried to hide her organs. But I wanted to see it. She allowed me to see her nude body after the initial hesitations.

After a lip kiss and tighter hug, I started to lick and rub her vagina. After teasing the bare skin around and on her vaginal lips, I started rubbing her clit. Now I moved in and out of her body to pass my semen slowly but rhythmically in her vagina. We both had a passionate sex. After this, Iicked and kissed her vaginal organs and navel. It's not a sex. It's love-making. We both made love to express the insane and intense love that we had for each other through this sex with each other's consent.

After few days, our relationship grew even more stronger. But, Vaishnavi was more fearful. She requested me to convince her conservative father about their love to which I agreed. 

While laying in her laps, I looked at Vaishnavi and asked her: "Hoi Vaishu. Shall we go for one day trip within Coimbatore?"

She smiled and said okay. As per my wishes, she came in the green colour sari. After the dark blue, green is my favorite colour. After roaming around Coimbatore, I booked a lodge for taking rest. I planned to go back to my house, the next day.

I and Vaishnavi stayed in the lodge. I convinced her to take rest and sleep there. She reluctantly agreed. 

After convincing her father, Vaishnavi said: "Let's stay here Hari." (For a temporary point of time, I relieve the usage of First-Person Narration. I am narrating this particular scene from my point of view[Third-Person narration])

While laying in the bed, Hariharan and Vaishnavi were bored. As he was unable to sleep, Hari looked at Vaishnavi and she looked at him in gaze.

At that time, Hariharan playfully asked Vaishnavi: "Vaish. Shall we have a violent sex?" Surprisingly, she agreed to have violent sex with him. Without any hesitation, Hariharan happily grabbed her wrist and pinned them over her head in order to remind her of how big and stronger he is. He did this after pushing Vaishnavi against a wall. 

Now Hariharan kissed in the lips of Vaishnavi by thrusting his tongue inside her mouth. He moaned like he have just tasted the best thing in his life. Hari didn't focus on her lips alone. Hari pushed Vaishnavi's head to the side to nibble and suck on her neck. After sucking her neck, he bited her shoulder. 

Without waiting to hear Vaishnavi's response, Hariharan undressed myself. After undressing himself, he went near to Vaishnavi, who was hesitating in fear after realizing the nature of Violent sex. With little anxiousness in her eyes, she pleaded with Hariharan not to undress her. But, he continued to go near to her.

"Hey. No Hari. Don't come near to me." Vaishnavi said playfully with an innocent voice and cute smile by hiding her anxiety inside the heart. But Hari was much aggressive to have a violent sex with her.

Without listening to her words, Hariharan undressed her by removing her green sari. As Vaishnavi looked at him, Hari forcibly tore away her bra, bikini and skirts. Now Hari is the one in charge. He didn't wait another second for her. At that time, Vaishnavi was standing naked in front of him. But, she was in fear. She begged not to proceed with the violent sex due to the level of anxiety in her mind. But, Hariharan hugged her by carassing her back with lust in his mind and love in his heart.

"We don't need this type of sex Hari." As Hariharan started to look at Vaishnavi angrily, she said: "I don't like this sex. I fear it will be more violent and aggressive. It's not a normal and subtle sex. Let's have normal sex instead of this violent sex." She was anxiously looking at him. But Hari didn't show any mercy and compassion because of his thurst to have violent sex. It was an desparate situation for him to explore the concept of Violent sex with Vaishu.

As Vaishnavi continually said no to violent sex, it made Hariharan frustrated, angry and irritated. He lost his cool at one point of time. He was triggered to to recall the flashbacks of his shattered dreams to travel in the TNSTC town buses(TN 38 10**, 11**, 12** series and TN 33 N 18**, 19** series). That flashback made him even more psychotic and regressive. As his anger raised up to the peak, his psychological imbalance was also at it's peak due to the emergence of Intermittent Personality Disorder. He was totally blinded by his anger and aggression at one point of time. With an angry and aggressive tone, Hariharan stared at Vaishnavi. 

"Don't look like this da. I feel feared." 

Hariharan said in an violent tone by tightly holding Vaishnavi's chin up: "Why di? Ha? At first, you said okay for the violent sex right. Then now alone why are you rejecting this di?" By tightly holding her hands, he violently slapped her in her left and right cheeks for several times. With pains in her cheek, Vaishnavi silently cried without making a single noise. She tried to console Hari. But to no avail.

Shouting at Vaishnavi even more louder, Hari again asked her: "Why are you rejecting to have violent sex with me di Vaishu?" His anger peaked at this moment. 

Vaishnavi was anxious and feared by seeing Hari's violent and aggressive behaviour. She cried aloud with deep emotional scars and turmoil in her heart. By laying in the floor, she distanced from Hariharan by crawling away in fear. Due to the fear, she even forgot to cover her naked body with a blanket. Hari also went closer to her to ensure that she doesn't escape from him by running away.

Hari had a little laughter. As he is near to her, he lustfully carassed the hands of Vaishnavi. Hari ensured that she doesn't escape from him.

Touching her left cheeks, Hari psychoticall said to her: "Why are you fearing Vaishu? Why are you crying? Don't fear and cry. I am your lover. Not a serial rapist or a serial killer. So, relax and don't panic like this." After saying this in a cooler tone, Hari asked her with my violent voice: "Okay ah? Haa?"  

Holding Vaishnavi's chin even more tightly, Hari violently slapped her again for multiples of times in her face and said: "You should say okay."

Now, Hari drank a little amount of water. After drinking the water, he came near to a tearful Vaishnavi. With a psychotic laughter and villainous tone in his voice, Hari kept his hands in her thighs.

As Vaishnavi stared at him angrily at this point of time, Hariharan carassed her thighs with lust and said: "I have a very bad habit since my High school days Vaishu. It's albeit a dirty habit of a badass. If I desire for something that I like so much, I will attain it somehow without worrying about the consequences. Because I lost the town buses that I loved so much because of few crooks. Like losing the town buses, I won't lose my desire to have violent sex with you. I will definitely have this violent sex with you even if you are not willing. Haha!"

When Hariharan finished telling this, Vaishnavi's eyes had lots of fear. She silently cried instead of crying aloud in order to escape the wrath of Hariharan. As Hari don't like people doing sentimental and emotional dramas like in cinemas. 

Now, Hari went near to Vaishnavi. He continued to slap in her face aggressively by recalling her rejection for Violent sex. Her face becomes pale and red because of the violent slap.

Without showing any mercy that Vaishnavi was nude without a single dress in her body, Hariharan kicked her stomach, chest and thighs violently. She was crying in pain and anxiety unable to bear his brutality. At that time, he rudely holded her chin and said: "Today we are going to have a violent sex. Without any hesitations you should be intimate by sharing your bed with me. This night you're going to sleep with me. Orelse I don't know what will I do. I will even rape you by making you unconscious if you don't agree di."  This terribly shocked Vaishnavi. She realized that Hariharan has some psychological disorder. With fear and agony, she accepted Hariharan's request. As she loves him more than anything in this world.

Hariharan started beating Vaishnavi again. He said: "You don't need violent sex ah di?"

Hari started beating Vaishnavi with full of rage. Now when Vaishnavi fainted he tied her eyes with the cloth.

Hariharan threw a nude Vaishnavi in the bed after kissing her cheeks and chin aggressively. When Hari was sleeping due to tiredness, Vaishnavi regained her consciousness. When she tried to run away from the bed, Hari tightly caught her and said: "Where are you running di? You can't even escape from here. Thought that I slept ah?" 

As Hariharan tightly grabbed her hands, Vaishnavi resisted and cried. She tried to take his hands by hitting him continuously. But, he psychotically laughed at her.

"My hands are powerful Vaishu. You can't even escape from me." After saying this with a laughter, Hariharan came back to his anger mode. 

"How dare you escape from me di?" Hariharan slapped Vaishnavi. She fell down in the bed. He continued to slap her violently in the face for more than 10 times. Now, his anger raised even more higher. With the intentions to make her physically weak, Hariharan aggressively hits her head with his hands continuously. He subjected her to a brutal physical violence for more than 20 times.

Due to the intense attack on her head, Vaishnavi again fainted in the bed. There were some brises and little bleedings in her head. Feeling satisfied and happier that he has made Vaishnavi unconscious, Hariharan mercilessly forced himself into her with a thought in his mind that, "She is unwilling to have violent sex. Then, why should I wake her up? Let her be in the unconscious state. Now, I will rape her till she regains her consciousness."

Hariharan kissed in Vaishnavi's lips. After kissing her lips, he gently shoved her onto the blankets and continued to kiss her all over the body from neck to legs. Then, he vigorously bited her back, kidney, thighs, belly and stomach. Due to the severity of the bites, Vaishnavi had bruises in those organs. Now, Hari continued to lick her in the thighs, vagina, navel, belly, scalp, stomach, left chest, right chest, breasts and neck. Trailing his finger around her nose and mouth, Hariharan again kissed her lips. After kissing her lips, he continued to kiss her in the cheeks, forehead, neck and stomach. Now, Hariharan licked in Vaishnavi's vagina vigorously. She was still unconscious at that time. 

After a while, Hariharan got up from the bed by taking a blanket. Standing near to the window, he smoked a cigar to evade the horrific past of losing the TNSTC town buses. While, Vaishnavi regained her consciousness. She was crying inconsolably due to the pain and agony by seeing herself in a violated state.

After smoking, Hariharan again came to the bed. Now, Vaishnavi was more feared. She was feeling dreadful.

"Please Hari. Please don't do anything. Leave me. We can have this violent sex later." Vaishnavi begged Hariharan to stop when he again started biting her organs. Without listening to her words, he fastly went near to her and hugged her tightly. It was so painful and forceful for Vaishnavi.

"No. No....Please don't do that. Please....No." Vaishnavi resisted by saying this when Hariharan aggressively violated her body. He fastly moved in and out of her body by grabbing her waist and chest tightly. 

"No....Please da. It's paining. Leave me." Vaishnavi cried in pain.

Now Hariharan forcibly passed my semen inside her vagina. Due to it's brutal nature, Vaishnavi shouted aloud in pain. I did it despite her pleads and cries of, "No......" Vaishnavi was enduring an unbearable pain at this point of time. Her vagina was injured with severe bleedings due to the final effect of Hariharan's. The blood from Vaishnavi's vagina started spreading in the blanket. She was screaming in hellbent pain and sufferings. Without considering her pains, Hariharan slept on the top of her body by aggressively hugging her with a psychotic laughter. Hariharan was feeling satisfied that he raped her brutally as a revenge for her rejection of Violent sex.

Within few hours, Hariharan came back to his normalcy phase. He looked at Vaishnavi crying aloud by tapping her heads. She initially cried silently. Her face was red with so much of tears, flowing from her eyes. She was unable to breath due to the fear and anxiety of the incident. Because of his unpredictable psychotic behavior, Vaishu endured so much of pain and agony. It's an unforgettable day in his and her life. As Hari did a horrific mistake, that can never be rectified. Only then he realized that he has brutally raped Vaishnavi. Though Hari did it without his knowledge under the influence of his psychological disorder, he got angry on himself.

Now, Hariharan shouted aloud in frustration for causing such a brutal physical violence to Vaishnavi. He thought of killing himself for enduring such a brutality to her. He was unhappy and angry with himself for his heinous actions. While, Vaishnavi was left emotionally turmoiled and angry. She slapped Hariharan, beats him up in anger and said: "I begged you la da. I pleaded with you not to have violent sex with me. But you brutally raped me under the pretext of having violent sex with me despite hearing my pleads to forbid the violent sex la. You violated my consent, autonomy and dignity da." She lashed out at Hariharan for his aggression, toxic behaviour and dominance. He deserved such a bad retribution from Vaishu. Tapping her head in the floor, Vaishnavi kneeled down by covering her body with a blanket. She cried aloud in pain and agony. 

After this explosive episode with Vaishnavi, Hariharan felt remorseful, ashamed and guilty of his aggressive behaviour. He felt ashamed for raping such a good soul in the name of having violent sex. He understood that his psychological disorder is getting worse and psychotic day by day. He slowly started increasing his intake of alcohol and cigarettes in the. 

Hari did it in order to cope up with my psychological problems. Since he thought that his actions are spoiling the life of people around him. He and his disorder are wholly responsible for all the mishaps. Realizing his own faults, Hariharan consoled Vaishnavi by making her to lie on his laps. She innocently layed on his laps and cried. Keeping her hands on his chins, Vaishnavi emotionally requested him by saying: "Please don't do this again da. Just leave me if I say no."

"I won't do this again. Sorry." But Hariharan was feeling so guilty and responsible for his actions even after apologising to her. He made a decision to serve punisment legally. To Vaishnavi, he said: "Give a police complaint against me for raping you that brutally Vaishu. I will serve brutal punishments for my heinous act."

Vaishnavi slapped Hariharan for saying so. She said: "Just shut up da. You didn't do this knowingly. You didn't rape me knowingly. And you was not even in a normal situation when you raped me. That too when you was in the peak of the Intermittent Personality disorder's effects. After your psychological problem went to an extreme, you harbored such a violent behavior. This happened because of the mental health issue. Let's resolve it. But I know my Hari will never ever touch a women when he's normal." (THIRD-PERSON NARRATION ENDS HERE. FROM HERE, AGAIN FIRST-PERSON NARRATION CONTINUES)

But I expressed remorse to her and said: "I fear I may be a big threat to everyone. It's good if I get a brutal and severe punishment, Vaishu. I am doing this by concerning for the own safety of my surroundings. I am ashamed of myself. I feel accountable for all these destructive actions." However, Vaishnavi consoled me and said: "Sleep peacefully Hari. Let's handle this issue."

After getting medical treatment with my friend's help, Vaishu met my brother on the next day. She informed Adhithya regarding the previous night's violent encounter and her fears that I may go worse if my violent behaviour goes unchecked. This made my brother furious. He lashed out at me and slapped me for brutally raping Vaishnavi. 

For the first time, Adhithya felt that his over freedom for me has spoiled my life. He apologized to Vaishnavi for my aggressive behavior and warned me not to indulge in such activities. After this, I started taking medical counselling and treatments for my psychological disorders. 

In a few days, I went along with Vaishnavi to their house for convincing her father. There, I met Vaishnavi's father, who follows staunch Hinduism. When I spoke about my love to her daughter, he refused to get her married to me by telling about caste differences and cultural norms.

This angered me a lot. I shouted at him by saying: "You say caste differences and cultural norms, Mr. Vaidhyanadhan Iyengar. When your daughter had a heart problem, it was my dead Ishu, who gave her heart to your daughter. Where did the caste went that time? I am a bloody CS aspirant. Is this how you treat me?" Looking at Vaishnavi, I told her: "If this is how it is, this is how I deserve my respect, let's end this relationship Vaishu. Self-respect and dignity is my first priority." 

Vaishnavi tried to stop me from going despite the warnings from her father. When I was going towards his car, Vaishnavi blocked him and said: "Please Hari. Listen to my words."

"What should I hear Vaishnavi?" I shouted at her, which is been watched by her relatives. When they came to fight with me, we both shared a passionate lip-lock, which made them realize that we are lovers. 

"Ask them to go away Vaishu!" I said with a softer tone initially. Now with a louder tone and wild angerness, I said: "Hey Vaishu. Ask that fucking idiots to get lost from here!"

"You itself ask them to go Hari." As they goes, I became even more aggressive. He said: "Now you are recognizing me as lover. But when your father insulted me, you're standing silently. Go. Go and stand behind your father."

As I said so in anger, Vaishnavi tried to control me. She cried while trying to console me emotionally. At that time, my anger went to the peak. I behaved violently with Vaishnavi. 

"Don't behave like a cinema heroine by crying like this to me Vaishu. Be practical. I am not a child Hari to believe all these cinema talking. Be realistic." As Vaishnavi continued to cry, I got irritated and anger. In my peak of anger, I slapped her in the left cheeks of her face. Then, I proceeded to slap her in the right cheeks and said: "You have one day time to decide whether you need me or your family. Decide it."

After going to the house, I took a larger amount of soft drinks and alcohol. As a result of this, I got fever and started vomiting. I was under rest for three days. Yet, Vaishnavi came to meet me in my house on the 1st day. But I was under medical treatment. Because of that my brother Adhithya was helpless. Within few minutes, one of Vaishnavi's relative took her back to her house. During the 3 days, Vaishnavi's phone was seized by her mother and elder sister. They blocked me in the Whatsapp and phone call. The family decides to take her to Bangalore and get her married to the man of their caste after three years.

Upon learning this on third day from Kamalesh, I angrily went to stop Vaishnavi from going despite the prevention of Adhithya. But, her family men beat me up severely in the railway station and hands him to the police. Adhithya bails him out. Because of this incident, my father's reputation gets damaged in the media and this is slammed by my mother Lakshmi. She lashed out at Adhithya for giving over freedom to me. She also accused me for tarnishing their respect and reputation in the society.

But I ignored her words by scolding her. Upon seeing all these things, my father chased me out of his house in anger for damaging his reputation. Despite Adhithya's request, he was stubborn in his decision. Heartbroken, I went out along with Kamalesh. He gave me a shelter in his house.

Adhithya contacted Kamalesh and asked him: "Is everything okay da?"

"All okay bro. I will take care." Kamalesh said and hanged the phone. While, I was in the upstairs with alcohol in my hand. When I went near Kamalesh, he wiped the tears in my eyes and said: "I am there with you da. Don't cry. If you drink this alcohol, will Vaishnavi come back ah? Let's wait patiently."

The next day, Adhithya met me in the flat. He embraced me emotionally and said: "Don't worry da. Everything will be fine soon. I will talk with him."

"Our father only la da. I didn't care about it." After having a cup of coffee, I asked Adhithya: "Shall I lay in your laps for sometimes, brother?"

"Hmm. Come da." Adhithya embraced me when I lay in his laps. I cried. When the drops of tears filled his laps, Adhithya wiped the tears from my eyes and said: "Everything will be okay da. You see. One day, Vaishu will return back to you. Until then, you have to wait patiently."

Adhithya said he has a surprise for me. I was wondering about the surprise. My grandmother gave a sudden visit to the flat. She came without the knowledge of my father and mother. As my father will scold her, she lied about going to a famous Srinivasa Perumal temple in Peelamedu.

My grandma is a member of RSS. She was brave and courageous because of the training and discipline from RSS organization. After consoling me, my grandma said: "Be hopeful da. Vaishnavi will comeback to you one day."

"Grandma. Is there any problems between Iyer and Iyengar?"

"Yes, indeed. There are problems between them da. It will be explained by your brother da. But let me remind you one thing. More than you, a father will be more concerned about his child's future. So as a father, he was right to control Vaishnavi. It's in your hands to face and handle this problem now."

After speaking with Adhithya for sometimes, my grandma left the place. While, I questioned Adhithya: "You too had a breakup with your Iyer lover la? Why da?"

"Why means? All because of the caste issues and conservatism only da. You saw unity in RSS la. Without any religious and caste differences." As I looked at him, he explained: "But. Not everyone are like such. In this Kaliyuga, we suffer a lot from various religious groups because of our divisive nature. Our selfishness has cost the lives of our Hindus. Due to this victimization only, Iyers and Iyengars became more conservative, religious and protective of our culture and dharma."

As I looked at him with more doubts, Adhithya understood what will be my next question. Now, he started explaining the clash between Iyer and Iyengar groups in detail.

IYER VS. IYENGAR

The face-off between the two South Indian Brahmin communities is quite lored and loved over decades. For the non-cognoscenti, to fast forward the old genesis, Iyers are essentially Shaivites  and follow Adi Shankaracharya (an 8th century legendary theologian and philosopher saint ) who revived the then-under-threat Hinduism by peregrinating across India and establishing the four mutts in the four zones besides founding the much respected Advaita philosophy (non-duality or unity of 'Atman' and 'Brahman'). Iyengars are essentially Vaishnavites and follow Ramanujacharya (a 11th century and much revered theologian and philosopher saint) who established Vishishtadvaita  philosophy (plurality and distinction between 'Atman' and 'Brahman' ). He disagreed with the non-dualistic Advaita philosophy and founded his own school of thought. He himself was an ardent devotee of Vishnu and believed and propounded Maha Vishnu ( orMaha Perumal, as Iyengars would address ) as the Supreme reality.   

In a related context, Iyers repose much faith in the 63 Nayanmargal or Nayanars (poet saints who lived between the 6th and the 8th century) who were followers of Shiva and had achieved moksha. Similarly, the Iyengars repose much faith in the 12 Azhvaars or Alvaars (poet saints of similar vintage) who were followers of Vishnu and had achieved moksha. Both Nayanmargal and Azhvaars were instrumental in the Bhakti movement and espoused complete devotion or bhakti as a road to realising the Self.

While both Iyers and Iyengars believe in 'kaashiyatrai' (pilgrimage to Kashi/Varanasi), Iyers regard Rameshwaram (one of the 12 Jyotirlingams in India) and the famed Ramanathaswamy (Shiva) temple as a must-visit pilgrimage while Iyengars regard Srirangam and the famed Ranganathaswamy (Vishnu) temple as a must-do pilgrimage.  

Etymologically, the term Iyer could have been derived from the work 'aiyaa', a Tamizh word of respectability, amongst other meanings like elder brother, etc. It could have also had its source from the Sanskrit word 'arya' which means noble.  The term Iyengar could have had its source, besides the above, also from the suffix of the word 'garu' (a Telugu  word denoting respectability and elder. So, 'ayya-garu'could have over time got colloqiualised as Iyengar. 

Iyers have 'vadamas' to denote those from the north, while Iyengars have 'vadagalai' and 'thengalai' to denote those from north and south respectively. The difference is essentially the preference of the vadamas/vadagalais (from the north) to Sanskrit and Vedas while the thengalais have primary allegiance to the local Tamizh language and the hymns of the nayanmargal/azhvaars. It is interesting to note here that between vadagalai and thengalaiIyengars also, there have been simmering differences over centuries like what should the shape of the namam (more of that later ) – should it be U-shaped or V/Y-shaped –  that is put on the ceremonial temple elephants. Suffice it to say, there have been court cases running into decades over this matter. Perhaps, the courts are also awaiting the divine oracle to settle this! Not surprisingly, in the past, alliances between vadagalais and thengalais were taboo, and continue to be so to some extent even  today.

Famous as India is for its myriad cultures, castes and communities and the inevitable concomitant jokes, both Iyers and Iyengars are quite often referred to as TamBrahms collectively by many across India and of course as 'illads' by our North Indian brethren. Trust the North Indians 'not' to do it. Everything goes. But, yes, it is universally accepted and evidenced that many, if not most, of the Iyers and Iyengars are highly qualified and very erudite, making a mark in their chosen fields, be it finance, law, economics, public policy, business, medicine, engineering or what have you. No Ivy league colleges overseas or the premier IIT/IIM institutions in India will have TamBrahms missing from their rosters – both men and women. If there is a flagbearer Iyer business group in Amalgamations Group, there is the reputed  TVS Group in the Iyengar fold.  If there is an Ariyakudi Iyengar, there is a Madurai Mani Iyer in Carnatic music. The music world is lorded over by the Iyers and Iyengars quite extensively.

To reconnect with the lighter vein of this article, the Iyers and Iyengars are perhaps horizontally and vertically challenged respectively. An Iyer applies a 3-line vibhuti (ash or bhasma) across his forehead while an Iyengar dons a U- or Y/V-shaped namam (of sandalwood paste and crimson line) vertically on his forehead. If a vertical and a horizontal line intersect, it should be a plus or a multiple, but not in the case of an Iyer and Iyengar; they would rather be cross and unequal!  

An Iyer lady would apply a round tikka (red and/or yellow dot) on her forehead while an Iyengar lady will have a blue vertical line (symbolising the blue colour of Vishnu/Krishna). If the Iyer lady is right, then the Iyengar lady has to be left. An Iyer lady will have her saree or the 9-yard 'madisar' pallu draped over her right shoulder whereas the Iyengar lady will have it draped over her left shoulder. After all, the right feels left is wrong and the left feels there is no right!

Lest I forget, Iyer women will have their kondai (hair curled into a ball) right at the centre of the back of the head, while an Iyengar will  have 'the andalkondai' off centre to the right and slightly to the front. Mercifully, both Iyer and Iyengar men's traditional dress is veshti (white dhoti) and angavastram (white dupatta type cloth) draped round the neck/over the shoulders.

While Iyers are ascetic and restrained generally (Shiva is ascetic with bear essentials), Iyengars are loud and colourful (Vishnu or Krishna are always depicted as well attired and bejewelled). Shiva is seen as 'abhishekapriya' while Vishnu is seen as 'alangarapriya'. That would explain why Shiva temples are shorn of adornments while in all Vaishnavite temples,Vishnu is draped with colourful clothes and jewels. Iyers are more seen as being receptive and inclusive of outsiders while Iyengars can be restrictive and reserved. Iyers believe in and pray to all gods including Vishnu and will visit all temples whereas Iyengars pray only to Perumal (Vishnu) and will not enter Shiva temples. 

Iyers name their children after Vishnu as well, besides Shiva, while Iyengars will not name their children after Shiva.  I recall an Iyer friend, who wanted to learn Carnatic music at Shanmukhananda Hall in Mumbai being asked by an Iyengar officebearer if he was an Iyengar – simply because my friend is named Srinivasan, his son Vijayaraghavan and his father Soundararajan; all Iyengar names. Not surprising that! Talking of faith, the writer is an Iyer, but his kuladeivatamis  Lord Venkatachalapathy (Vishnu) residing in the well-known Taanthoni (swayambhu) Malai Temple in Karur. Catch an Iyengar having a Shiva temple as kuladeivatam! 

In the past, a marriage proposal between an Iyer and Iyengar would be a no-no and scorned at, resulting in a mini family war. Fortunately, those feelings are by and large not extant today, given the propensity of the younger generation to inter-caste and inter-faith marriages.

PRESENT

At present, Adhithya said to me: "Hari. I will tell you another story. An Iyer husband requested his Iyengar wife to organise for rasamsaadam, poriyal and thayirsaadam. She volunteered and happily served him saathumudhu, karimedhu and daddojanam. Confused? It turns out that the Iyer terminologies and their respective Iyengar terminologies for these food items mean exactly the same thing – rasam rice, curry and curd rice! The last I heard of the couple, they were busy confusing each other with their choice of cuisine words and trying to draw a line somewhere between samayal and thaligai (both meaning cooking/food ) – vertical or horizontal.  Shiva Shiva, Narayana, Narayana! I am sure that before long, the I'err' and the I'anger' will fuse into calm and cool and there will be no 'You Iyer, Me Iyengar'. After all, Sakkaraipongal (a sweet delicacy) tastes as sweet when called Akkaravadisal."

With the hope that my Vaishnavi will return back one day, I continued my preparation for CS Profession. Often, I had outing with Hemanth, Kamalesh, Rahul and Nithish whenever I felt bored. They were with me as a company. At times, Adhithya will join with us whenever he is free. Somehow I successfully completed my CS Executive Module 2 exams also.

After the exams, I applied for articleship, which will be for 2 years. From 2021 to 2023, I started pursuing my articleship with a reputed CS. I joined in RSS as per my grandma's guidance. During my career, I attended my school friend's reunion party. In between the incidents, I lost my close friend Ibrahim in a road accident. Following his death, I realized the importance of life and love. Slowly I gave up my substance abuse and self-destructive habits.

But, whenever I am intimidated about caste and religion, I use violent ways to control my opponent groups. Like such, when I gave a speech about lack of unity amongst Hindus, one of my Muslim friend came with his henchman to attack me. I patiently explained him not to indulge in violence.

When he insisted me that: "I'll search for Vaishnavi, find her out and kill her", I got angry. I plucked the Iron rod from his henchman. The Muslim friend laughed at me by underestimating my power. But, I brutally beat one of his henchman with the Iron rod. As his blood splashed in my face, I beat another henchman with the same iron rod and injured him badly. Seeing my wildness and violent nature, my Muslim friend ran away with his men in fear.

After a brutal encounter with my friend, I explored the problems faced by Brahmins in detail. I had some good Muslim friends like Afsal, Aaqib Zuhair and Muhammad Farid Sulaiman. But, some religious bigots were also there to harm people's prosperity and peace. During my research in the period of articleship, I came across an article related to Mandyam Iyengars in the regime of Tipu Sultan.

The article was old. I found it somewhere in a library at Mandya. It said like this:

The "festival of lights" brings with it good vibes, good food and a sense of well-being. Diwali/Deepavali stands for the victory of good over evil and reminds us of how light dispels darkness. But for one community in Karnataka, Deepavali is a dark and unwelcome reminder of their tryst with a tyrant, Tipu Sultan. The Mandyam Iyengar community (a Brahmin sub sect) observe "Naraka Chaturdasi" as a day of mourning. It was on this day more than 2 centuries ago when the "Tiger of Mysore", massacred close to 800 Mandyam Iyengar men, women and children in cold blood in the town of Melkote. Although the exact year of the massacre is not known, members of the community state that it occurred between 1783-1795.

Melkote is a small hill town located in Mandya district, Karnataka. Also known as Thirunarayanapuram, it is home to 2 famous temples – the Cheluvanarayana Temple and the Yoga Narasimha Temple. The Mandyam Iyengars are a sub-sect of the Iyengar community. Amongst the earliest followers of Sri Ramanujacharya, they settled in Melkote in the 12th century after being granted patronage by the Hoysala King Vishnuvardhana. Sri Ramanujacharya is said to have worshipped at the Cheluvanarayana Temple and subsequently renovated it. The Hoysalas eventually declined but the fortunes of the Mandyam Iyengar community saw an upward curve under the Vijayanagar Empire. The Vijayanagar kings were great patrons of the Cheluvanarayana Temple and made several generous grants both to the temple and the Iyengars of Melkote.

By 1565, the Vijayanagar Empire had almost disintegrated. The Wodeyars, who ruled over Mysore, were the vassals of the Vijayanagar Empire and declared independence. Under Raja Wodeyar I, the Mysore kingdom gradually expanded its influence. Over the next 150 years, the community prospered under the Wodeyars and occupied key administrative and religious posts. The Cheluvanarayana temple was also handed over to the Mandyam Iyengars.

However, by 1760, the Wodeyar family had ceded much of their influence and power to the Dalwai or the commanders-in-chief. While the throne was occupied by a Wodeyar, his presence was merely nominal. When Krishnaraja Wodeyar II passed away in 1763, the most influential amongst his commanders-in-chief Hyder Ali established himself as the undisputed ruler of the Mysore kingdom. This shift in power also thrust the Mandyam Iyengars into greater prominence. The community owed much of its prosperity and influence to the largesse of the Wodeyars.

This was repaid by a show of fierce loyalty. The dowager queen Lakshmammani's efforts to place a Wodeyar back on the throne were ably assisted by the Mandyam Iyengars. At the forefront was the Pradhan of Mysore, Thirumalai Iyengar and his brother Narayan Iyengar. Talks were initiated to forge an alliance with the East India Company in order to dethrone Hyder Ali. The plot was uncovered by Hyder Ali and he imprisoned both the brothers and their extended family. Fearing persecution, several members of the community emigrated to the Madras Presidency. Interestingly, Hyder Ali retained other Mandyam Iyengars who were in important administrative posts.

When Hyder Ali died in 1783, he was succeeded by his son Tipu Sultan. Unlike his father, Tipu was quite wary of the relationship between the Iyengars and the Dowager Queen. After Hyder Ali's death, Rani Lakshmammani intensified her efforts to sign a military alliance with the British. Shamaiah Iyengar, a minister in Tipu's court secretly reached out to Lord George Harris, a high ranking Major General in the Madras Army. This correspondence was viewed as treason by Tipu Sultan and his response was to wipe out the entire Mandyam Iyengar community in Melkote.

On "Naraka Chaturdasi", the day when Deepavali is celebrated by several south Indian communities, the army of Tipu Sultan rounded up the Mandyam Iyengar community living in Melkote. More than 800 people were slaughtered and Melkote was laid waste. The rest of the inhabitants abandoned the town. Melkote turned into a ghost town overnight. It is also instructive to note that Lord George Harris was subsequently appointed Commander of the Madras Army which participated in the 4th Anglo Mysore War with 2 other British armies and defeated Tipu Sultan.

To this day, the Mandyam Iyengar community does not celebrate Naraka Chaturdasi and observe it as a day of mourning, due to the actions of Tipu Sultan. The memories of the massacre have been seared into the collective consciousness of the community. In 2014, a paper about the massacre was presented by two research scholars belonging to the community – Dr.M.A.Jayashree and Prof.M.A.Narasimhan. Unfortunately, no other accounts of the massacre exist outside the Mandyam Iyengar community. The event has also been ignored by mainstream historians in India.

The question of whether Tipu Sultan was a religious bigot or not deserves a debate of its own. Any attempt to highlight massacres such as these will likely lead to accusations of "revisionism". This is also in line with the current mood prevalent in certain academic circles. It is important that the trauma inflicted upon a small community is at least acknowledged. Deepavali is supposed to symbolize the victory of light over darkness but for the Mandyam Iyengars, it will forever remain a day when darkness descended upon them.

At present, I realized why Iyers and Iyengars were conservative and protective of our culture. In few months, I completed my articleship successfully around June 2023. I started my preparation for Professional stage. Whenever I am down, Hemanth and Nithish were with me. But now, I lost both of them.

(First-person narration ends here)

PRESENT

At present, Vishnuvardhan asked Adhithya to come back to the house immediately. In the house, they have fixed an alliance for him with a rich businessman's family in Bangalore. He was happier to hear the news. After the engagement ceremony, Adhithya requested his father to call Hariharan for the group photo in Engagement and marriage. Initially hesitant, Vishnuvardhan eventually agreed.

Adhithya invited Hariharan and Kamalesh for the engagement. After having some good conversations, both successfully attends his marriage. During the marriage, Hariharan and Kamalesh have an excessive alcohol. At that time, Kamalesh forbids Adhithya from drinking as per Hariharan's orders.

"You can drink. But your elder brother shouldn't drink ah da? What logic is this?" Adhithya jokingly asked it to Hariharan to which he said: "My mother suffered a lot to cure your Autism and ADHD disorder brother. I don't want her to suffer again by making you drink this alcohol." When he said this in intoxication, Lakshmi was emotional. She heard it from the backside and was happier to realize that: "Both the brothers have an inseparable bonding and understanding."

Within six months of target, Hariharan successfully completed his CS professional course with passion and dedication. Following the completion, he goes to Mumbai for taking 1 week training in Stock exchange markets. From there, he comes back to ICSI office in order to get his convocation and Certificate of Practice. After that, he opened his own office and starts his fresh career.

Impressed by Hariharan's education and religious knowledge, RSS posts him as Coimbatore's representative. In few months, when Hari was preparing to go for a campaign to Bangalore, Adhithya came to meet him in a tea shop.

"Hey. I am searching you all over da. Where did you go?" asked Hariharan. After a while of silence, Kamalesh asked Adhithya to tell what happened. He said: "Hari. Our grandma died da."

Shocked, Hariharan went back to the house, where his mother Lakshmi was sitting sad. One of his relatives said to Hari, "Come Hari. My sister used to speak a lot about you and Adhithya. But, she was the more happiest person when she heard that you cleared CS than your father. She sat in the chair by keeping her hand in the chest. Within few minutes, she died."

"Where's dad Adhi?" asked Hari, to which he said: "He is sitting in the backyard of the house, Hari."

Hari went to bring his father. Sitting near to him, he said: "Dad. You remember? When I was young, you taught me about guts and glory. You said not to fear for anyone in life. A gutsy man like Vishnuvardhan should never sit dejected like this. I know our grandma's death pains you a lot than others in the outside. But, this is the most precious time in your life. Come dad. Come inside. Let's send our grandma to heaven. Everyone's waiting for you." When Hari pulled his father, Vishnuvardhan hugged him emotionally.

They completed her funeral. Few days later, Hari gets ready to go for Bangalore Campaign after completing some important Annual General Meetings and Board meetings successfully. When he was getting ready, Vishnuvardhan said: "Hari. Come back and start your life fresh."

When Hari was getting ready to go for Bangalore, he sees a pregnant Vaishnavi in a park at Coimbatore but proceeds with his campaign to Bangalore. Convinced that she is unhappy with her marriage, Hari meets her again at the same park after his vacation with the help of Adhithya and Hariharan.

Vaishnavi refuses to talk with Hariharan. At that time, Adhithya said: "Vaishu. He never know that you came to meet him on that day. He was completely intoxicated. He vomited and suffered from fever. But, once he came to know that you are leaving to Bangalore, he came to you for stopping you from going there. That's why my father chased him out."

"Yes Vaishu. After this incident, he was with me till he completed his CS profession course. You would have got the information about what happened next I guess. We both lost Hemanth and Nithish in a road accident. Not only them. Even Ibrahim. Three of them was a big loss to him. We felt the pain of the accident even though our physical wounds have healed." After Kamalesh said this, Adhithya added: "After our grandma's death only, Hari came back to our house. I think I have cleared everything Vaishnavi."

Hari asked Adhithya and Kamalesh to go so that he can talk with Vaishnavi. While, Vaishnavi drank some water. At that time, Hari said: "Vaishnavi. Accidents often remind us of the fragility of life. It's a wake-up call to re-evaluate our priorities. I got an opportunity to learn and grow because of accidents."

After few minutes, Hari asked her: "I ran to see you in the railway station. But, you didn't even turn back to me la?"

"How much distance da? Is that a Himalayas ah?" Hari asked her: "Ok. Shall I talk with your husband? For me, you're important. I will speak with him and ensure you both are united. You just say okay.  I will talk with him and come."

Looking at Hariharan gaze, Vaishnavi asked him to come.

"Ha?" asked Hariharan to which, Vaishnavi replied: "Come near to me." Hariharan went near to her. She asked him to sit in the grass.

As Hari looked at her in surprise, Vaishnavi beats him in the face and said emotionally: "Come more closer to me." She slapped him with love and kissed Hariharan all over the face with lots of love and passion. While Holding Hari, she uncontrollably cried. 

After crying emotionally, she said: "Hari. How did you live your life without me? Tell.  I never got married after going to Bangalore da. I thought I should never come back to you in my life at any cost. After going to Bangalore, I left my family within 2 days. I got a separate room in Coimbatore. From there, I studied for my CA Intermediate and cleared it. Now, I am waiting to complete my CA Articleship and CA Final. Within few days, my anger for you reduced slowly. When I was ready to purse my CA articles, I got periods. At that time only, I got to know that I am pregnant. I didn't thought to return back to you. But I thought of coming back to you again after a few days. But, I saw the accident news. From that only, Iearned the death of our friends Hemanth, Nithish along with you and Adhithya brother's survival. I waited with a hope that you'll comeback to me one day. Hari. Listen to me carefully! This baby is your baby." Vaishnavi cried while telling this to him. 

Hari looked at her womb emotionally. He cried and embraced her in tears. 

"Hari. I didn't even inform this news to my parents. But I wished to convey this news to you as the first person. We are going to become parents soon." As Vaishnavi said so, Hari asked her to tell it once again in tears.

"We are going to become parents soon." Hari and Vaishnavi shared a lovable lip kiss at that time.

Hari learns from Vaishnavi that an old Iyer women took care of her with care and affection. She said: "Take care of her pa. She cried and waited for you with lots of hope. Be happy." Hari thanked the old lady. To honor her, he takes her to his house after learning that her family have abandoned her.

Vishnuvardhan feels happier that his son finally got the girl whom he loved so much just like Ishwarya. With the happier approval from Vishnuvardhan's family, Hariharan and Vaishnavi are happily married. They share a passionate lip kiss after the marriage. At that time, Vaidhyanadhan comes to meet the family of Hariharan. With fear, Vaishnavi holds the hands of Hariharan.

"No dear. I won't separate you hereafter. Be happy with Lord Vishnu's blessings." When Vaidhyanadhan apologized to Hariharan for his mistakes, Hariharan holds his hands and said: "I too have to apologize to you for being so harsh at that time uncle."

By showing an article of Mandyan Iyengar's genocide, Hariharan said: "When I was in RSS, I read about this particular article. Then, I realized you was right in your own way." Now, Hariharan seeks his blessings by falling in his feet. Vaidhyanadhan blesses him whole-heartedly. Then, both Vaishnavi and Hariharan seeks his blessings.

Before leaving to the hall, Vaidhyanadhan looked at Hari and said: "Hari. Kindly ensure that we Hindus are united. Don't let the outside forces to win. I don't have the pride of Iyengar/Iyer. Now, I say. I am a proud Hindu."

Now, Hariharan danced with Adhithya to cheer up Vaishnavi outside the hall by playing songs in TV. While, Vaidhyanadhan and his family were having some important discussions with Vishnuvardhan and Lakshmi. During the celebration, Vaishnavi sees a reflection of Ishwarya, Hemanth and Nithish smiling at them.

Outside the hall, Adhithya, Hariharan, Vaishnavi and the family members take a group photo after completing the huge celebration. At that time, Hariharan asked Kamalesh to come for the group photo, to which he refused. But, Adhithya and Hariharan said: "You are also our family member only da. Not an outsider. Come without showing any hesitations."

Hearing this Kamalesh was happy. Now, he also took a group photo with them with lots of smile in his face. 

FEW MONTHS LATER

After delivering a a baby girl, Vaishnavi is asked by Hariharan: "What name shall we keep for her Vaishu?"

With a smile at Hariharan, Vaishnavi replied: "Ishwarya."

Hariharan felt happier. Both of them had the same thoughts of decision to honor Ishwarya. With a feel of glad, he emotionally embraced Vaishnavi. After her delivery, Vaishnavi successfully completed her CA profession with strong support and encouragement from Hariharan and his family members.