Explosion

Hehe, title is quite atomic na right, its not about scientific theory but yeah its related to kinda scientific

Related to my heart and feelings, right now at midnight am going through this explosion, 

Yes am suffering from explosion of my heart which is now filled with anxiety stress depression but still now I have to pretend , it ok pooja it ok it quite normal

You can handle this situation, where I really wanted to cry scream like a hell but no, I'll not do, again I'll be broken into many pieces

I thought I am in Love , sorry Again I am in Love but no I am unable to give name to our relation

For him it was quite easy to say, I don't wanna forward our relationship there is no future, but me who is dumb has again became slave of my own feelings

We loved each other, but he don't wanted to give any name, 

I don't wanna play this game, I am hurting inside myself, and people still thinks... oh wow pooja you gotta such a beautiful eyes and smile

I didn't wanted to loose him or I don't want to become a stranger, coz this time my heart will explode in terrible

I'll hide and cry it will ok for me, but I wont share my feelings to anyone

I just want one thing in my life... I want to see my loved ones smile 

For that if I have to sacrifice my own 

I'll do it that too, coz I won't stay forever here anymore

I promised myself at the morning am 4, 

I will never look back if I go..., It doesn't means that I didn't love you, but its the only thing I wanted to fulfil your wish that will come true

You told me to search a nice guy... No I'll not find, He'll find me and that time you have to attain my wedding ceremony.

If your thinking am taking this as revenge, no not at all I am just fulfilling your wish

Today my heart has exploded in the pain that even I can't cry, but surely that day will come where you really want to share your love and pain but that time I'll be not there...

I am writing my words in such a pain, hope so when I read this in future 

I'll smile again...

Reminder: Don't love anyone with terms and condition, if your loving someone love him/ her unconditionally without worrying about the future

And firstly most important, don't lose yourself, whenever you think your heart is broken cry at a one time how much you want and don't repeat that again

I repeat never repeat again