Day-8-The Confused Writer

Yes. It's been 7 days since I write here. and here is the Day-8. Yes, Let's clap, we have completed a week.

Even though informally, randomly, still I remember to write every day.

But why? for whom? and how the crowd will react?

Will they read? Will they understand? Will they appreciate? Will they ignore?

And ahead of all these ?'s, the most important one is, Why I haven't shared this with my near ones?

One day for sure, I will cherish all the tiny memories of these 21 days. Certainly, I will miss these days. and so it all started with a thought to pen down everything here to read one day. To read and recall all the fun which probably I will never be having again. and all these stories, not for anyone, just for me. to make myself recall, one day, how I survived from my home arrest.

But If it's really about myself, my emotions, my memories then why online? why participation? why I read the rules of this competition?

The unknowns who read online, their personal opinions, don't matter at all.

Really? I think they matter. Their votes too. No. They don't. I am not writing to win the competition.

Again really?

and the near ones? Probably, some may read. The rest may ignore. Some may like. The rest may laugh. I really don't think all these counts matter.

Really? Then why I am thinking about their reactions? Afraid of criticism? and criticism of what? Writing skills or emotions?

And, why I am writing all these as a story? Just because I want to sound different? maybe because today I have nothing interesting to say?

Or maybe I want to impress you with my content? maybe I want you to go back to all the stories of days 1 to 7 and read the next?  

 It’s endless. That’s a point and that’s the problem. We think, think and only think. Both of us wasted our time, I as a writer and you as a reader.

If I was a good writer, I could have written something good, with a social message, something entertaining or something meaningful at least.

Am I a good writer? Who is dam conscious about his writing that he clearly mentions, “informal writing”, so all his mistakes can be ignored.

With all these confusions, still, I am writing. May be for me. Maybe just to spend some time.

May be it's just to find out all the maybe's, all the questions and all the confusions which may come out from someone's writing.

But have I listed all of them? I guess may be. No. Maybe many are left. But I think most of the mains are listed.

Oh. Let me check for any typo. But typos are ok in informal writing. Right? Maybe.

Too many maybe in this story. I think i know, when to use "maybe" and when to use "may be". Yes i know. hmmm. Maybe.