Crucifying death!?!

Rest in peace feels heartless to say out loud whenever I think of you

I no longer know you whenever your name is uttered

The memory of your face fades with time

Its like you are becoming a stranger in my mind and heart yet you still are the pearl I till regret ever loosing

Drowning in my thoughts I swim in an ocean hit time to time with waves of bits of memories I have of you

I try to remind myself it's not real but I force myself to making it very real

I hold onto dear memories of you.

With my addiction to booze, you will understand there is nothing I try so hard to lose..It saddens me that's you and the memories I have of you I try so hard to get rid of

Letting you go is torture

It's killing me: piecing and digging holes in my heart

My mind also bleeds, now that you are gone it has no needs.

The only memory that is stuck in my mind is of the wails and mourning on the day your soul flew to the skies and flowers being planted onto your grave

six feet away but I cant touch

It pains that you:

six feet away but I can't see you

six feet away but I can't hear you

six feet away but I can't feel you.

Why did it have to be under

Why is missing you feel like absolute hunger

You are my craving, the food nature is starving me of.