A Sigh Of Relief

A sigh of relief that the holidays are over

Over and over this year, so many people I've talked to have said it's been a really rough year. No one seemed to be in the holiday spirit.

I myself know this is a fact as this has been a hell of a year for me.

I've lost people in my life this year due to this dreaded covid. It's been one of the hardest financially for me in years. I've had to have surgery on my wrist and not be able to write or work output me into a dark place. I had to battle with depression, which was the hardest for me as I was never depressed. I am one of the most positive people you will ever meet. But this year, this year threw me for a loop.

I have to be honest: the holidays came too fast. I was just not ready, nor did I feel festive or in the holiday mood. When my daughter told me she planned to go away for Thanksgiving, I didn't even do my annual open house for people that had nowhere to go, I honestly just didn't have it in me, instead, I ran away myself.

By the time Christmas rolled around, I had to tell you it was no better. My daughter calls in hysterics about her 25th birthday trip going to be ruined because her best friend got covid, and could I drop everything and go with her. Of course, I did, but that put me way behind with everything I had to do, and while I had a great time while we were there, when we came back, I was in full panic mode. Then my girls tell me that they were spending Christmas Eve with their Jewish father, well that about did it for me. Whatever little festival I had in me went straight out the window.

I have to tell you, if it wasn't for the people that I knew I didn't have a family to be with this holiday, I would have pulled the plug on it all.

But as that old Showbiz saying goes "The Show Must Go On," I pulled it together and made a holiday dinner special for those who would have had none otherwise.

Sometimes, as bad as you're hurting, you need to put that aside and put others' needs in front of your own needs. As my pastor says all the time, you need to be a blessing to others, and so I'm trying to do that.

Now I am not complaining, don't get it twisted as I know I am blessed beyond belief, but sometimes... Just sometimes, I would like to catch a break.

I know my friends are the family I choose for myself. I know God has and will continue to take care of me and I know as my mom used to say all the time, "This too shall pass" and so I hold on to that tiny bit of faith and hope to get me through.

So today, my friends, we can all breathe a sigh of relief knowing we made it through the holidays and that the new year is right around the corner with better days to come.

I wish you and yours a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year. Thank you all for following me, cheering me on, and always being there for me. I so appreciate each and every one of you. God bless.