Too Far Too Strong

Have you ever felt the pain within a pain and its to and fro movement;

Like an unallowable cascading rollback? 

Have you ever gone numb and always looked back? 

Have you incessantly thought about the jumbles and puzzles;

That your life has written in riddles? 

Have you been a believer of pain, 

Even if you thought yourself to be the master of your sail? 

From dragging yourself up from bed 

To standing in front of the mirror staring blank, 

Looking for the scars which you kept hidden 

In full sleeves, in high collars, in top to bottom draped clothes, or maybe enclosed within. 

Have you ever masked your screamed 

Such that it raises no voice

And you talk without speaking and cry without weeping? 

Have you ever been in a dilemma with silence 

Unable to figure out your ambiguous feeling of being afraid and touch of peace? 

Have you ever tried to seek for the answers

Or etch out the meaning of your life,

The existence of your being or if it ever existed?

Ask yourself if it ever made sense 

To live this way, or maybe that way 

If it ever helped others to survive even if you are dead inside? 

Constant denial of hope and boxing yourself up, 

For the judgements and fears that tear you up, 

Most irritating phrase being "this too shall pass" 

Though one can never infer the process of this fuss. 

With hope, with love, with care, with sense 

No one came up caressing your strength 

Questions on why not strong, instead of how so strong

Instead of proud of you, you hear how weak are you

You can't explain you walked too far too strong

And you need to rest

But maybe a friend's shoulder can help

Can help cross this road 

Can help lessen the load

Can help you falling down

Can help you get your feet on ground. 

Hence ask for a friend

It's never too late

It's never a waste, it's not always a bait

What if it is patience, what if it is hope

What if it is the secret zone where your feelings can elope,

Where you will get trained with new sunshine

Where I will see you with your laughter lines.