Tired

I’m tired of the one night stands and the dead end jobs. I’m tired of being the asshole in everyone’s life. 

Im tired of not being enough for my dad. Like I get it, I’m not the child you wanted but you don’t have to rub it in my face. 

I’m tired of not being able to tell the person I like about my feelings for them because I’m scared of what they might say. 

I’m tired of being known for my past. I know I was an asshole but I’m trying to change into a better person. 

I’m tired of loveless relationships and lonely nights with nobody asking how my day was or even saying hi first. 

For once I want to be happy. I want a relationship with real love, one that I can trust my partner with anything I tell them. 

I want to make my parents proud and get out of this town but if I leave I’ll be losing someone I actually care about and I’m scared we’ll lose contact after a few months. 

I’m tired of being useless to everybody I run across. For once I want to help people and fall in love and see things. But there’s only one person I want to do those things with. And that person don’t like me