Addiction

You're like an addiction. You make me feel better than any drug I’ve taken in my life. My mind is telling me don’t quit but my heart is saying slow down before you damage me even more. The fact that it’s only you I truly adore and want to hold onto is crazy because I used to only go for anybody that I could grasp my arms onto. 

It’s been a year and A half since I’ve been in any kind of relationship and I’ve found peace within myself. I don’t need anybody but I want you. Im fun when I’m drinking but I’m more fun when I’m sober and you’re in my arms. I want to be the one that holds you tightly but not too tight you can’t breathe. 

I don’t even know if I wanna send you this message knowing it’s going to be corny but if I do just know that I’m not just somebody that wants to talk when I’m horny. 

I want you because for once in my life I’m calm when I talk to someone and that someone is you. People call me an asshole that is true but with you by my side I’d be patient and calm like the child I could never be. It’s funny tho because I’d let you bring out the child in me.