Steps

I feel like I’m just existing. 

Every day waking up with the same schedule as the last thinking I’m escaping the past.

But the more I think I’m moving forward the more I realize I’m in a constant loop that never ends. 

I want to break the cycle one day but I’m afraid of what’s next. 

I don’t think I like all this stress but I’m not strong enough to open the new door that is right in front of me. 

So I take two steps back and one step forward with all my strength. 

But I get pulled back to where I started.