Past….
Past….
I always remember of the past I cry
The things I had that was done why
I don’t understand why I can’t forget or let go
So I can move on and enjoy the future show
There clingy to me like leech to a body sometimes
Once they are full of blood the erased with time
But that mark or scar remain to haut new day
The past may be gone but it memories are hiding till today
From the time that I was born their action has predicted my today
I feel the little bit of pinch in whatever I do or say
Like blood sucking mosquitoes they so familiar
Time and time they seem to re-appear, I stuck in time with that fear
There nothing that can withdraw these from me,
I am clouded with my own that discouraging be bitterly
Whether it parents, that loves now they don’t
Or the trust they have and now hesitation distrust prone
The horrifying words the echo sometimes
The nightmare of being a worthless sings chores in rhymes
From dread thing that are now filled inside my head
I wish there some way to clear that thing when I sleep in bed
Sometime I wish insomnia was my friend to me
So that sleep would not come ever to be
I keep working like non-stop clock
Sometime take break to the washroom or be out for walk
Just continue to write the thing that comes in my head
They fill up libraries with thousands of pages instead
From every moment every sec capture in words and rhymes
All you know that I write poems that are sing song and rhyme
Hear the snore of the crowds that sleep near by
Thing of the dreams of their wicked fantasy as it comes alive
There are experiences that good ones that I have know
That each about the things I should do, in better way is known
Learn thing that confined in space of this mind
I have learnt a lot in hard way and bad times
Sometime when the answers seem just about to appear
Life changes the question in just flip and disappear
Sometime I wonder is life to even taken seriously
About the timeless wonder that it can bring to enlighten thee
I always believe in fantasy of the oblivion of unknown
Thinking of the vacuum that sometime the mind prone
The attractions of the choices earlier made
Some have to chances to turn again mended it to better ways
But of the emptiness that now within me
It has finished everything that I thought I would rather be
The love of my own has now become disgusted and turns to rage
There was chapters that has cleared and made new page
Now everything I write will be new instead of old
The Old is churned from time and pressure into memories cold
Loneliness, silence, and shadow my new name
I will hide from everyone be nothing, but still have fame
The value of Zero is know n by the few
I learnt it the hard way, so will others too?
I first felt what life I will have if alone I will be
I won’t anyone to prove or fight for a competition seriously
In my own world, web of truth I built
I would die as silk worm, giving the precious silk