Only IF the HEART had MIND..

I might not had any insecurities 

Had maneuvered sensitive situations with maturity. 

I might not have looked stupid, if I had not entertained arrows of affection everytime shot by cupid.

Today I stand in the field of Lavender, thinking about the past and I just wonder ...

I ask myself what if the heart had mind?Have I still not made decisions with the heart that was Blind?.

I might feel Ebullience externally, 

But I do appreciate silence internally.

I still dissemble, as I have a present and future to be assembled.

I still ask myself, what if the heart had mind? Have it not felt ambivalence inside?.

I might have not compared the demure me and instead have withstand the remorse feeling just like a tree.

I still knew that these feelings are ephemeral, but what I felt even it was for a moment is ineffable. 

I might not have looked for the enticing soul inside me, But I crumbled upon the fact of being an imposter me.

I ask myself what if the heart had mind?

Would I still not be an altruist version of me?.

The time passed by , I wonder how stronger I am now and the difficulties kept crossing the road as a passerby ,

I keep watering the seeds of epiphany that I sowed and one day I know a flower will be bloomed.

I now ask myself, would I be able to live a scenic life without feeling these emotions? But now I know those feelings made my life feel ethereal as I'll carry every moment of learning from them for a period of eternal.

I wonder I have lived in an abomination if had not felt any emotions and would have also suffered in my imaginations.

      But Only IF the HEART had MIND...