Nothing Like Before

A feeling of nostalgia surrounds me now,

Living I am but don't know-how.

Giving myself a chance to head solo,

Pushing against the limits here I go.

A force so strong holding me back,

Held on to the ground, an intent I lack.

Swallowing the pain and the agony I am,

But it feels as if you don't give a damn.

Irritating instructions restrictions is all I hear from you,

Harsh it is, so rude, hurting like if an arrow just got through.

There's a storm that is gushing through my brain,

If I bleed it out, it would take a lifetime to stop the rain.

This is not the way I feel to make it normal,

It is rather getting more and more formal.

No more morning messages, no more night calls,

Keeping away is like fighting with myself in a roadside brawl.

When I walk I see you,

When I play I feel you,

When I talk I need you,

Even though I am here, but I can't find you.

No demands I have I'll create no nuisance,

At least keep me in your thoughts for once.

I will not bother you and for you, I won't even thrive,

I'll simply live mine and let you live your life.

One small wish is all I have ever expected,

To be the first person in your mind rather than getting neglected.

For sharing, for caring, for loving, even though not as lovers,

But maybe doing the same things as best friends forever.