Not A Love Poem

The heart wants what it wants 

You texted me the other day my heart dropped while my stomach did flips and my legs wouldn’t stop shaking. 

It brought me back to that very first time. 

Pain so bad I couldn’t even compare 

Then you asked me to take a hard to swallow pill 

My throat so dry Those few simple worlds took me on a roller coaster of emotion 

It give me this content feeling they call happy. 

Then, surprise! 

You broke me again 

My heart dropped as I felt myself choke.

How could I let my guard down like that? 

You destroy everything in your path like a hurricane. 

Even if it’s me 

We kiss.

Holding on to myself.

Apart from you, I found myself. 

I hold my breath every time you walk out that door. 

Will it be the last time?

Will my heart drop again?

The heart wants what it wants.