My Confused Self

I dreamt of having a dream 

Having the desire to go for

It was beautiful at the moment

Though In reality, it's so far

I envy you, I observe you

Still, I don't get about myself

I ain't sitting still doing nothing

Still, with my heart, I can't help

I tried am trying something new

Yesterday, today till I get it

For what I am a little scared of is

In these limits, if I don't get it 

Am doing everything on time

And trying not to lose it

Still, I am advised, not asked

I do it even if I don't want it 

I am gonna be a loser

If I don't just choose it

I am scared now I am sad

What's there I don't get it

Can I break the limits, I set

Can I rebel against myself 

Shall I just hit my rock bottom

And could return without help