Memories

Your smile was the best thing that happened to me,

In your arms is where I always hoped my second home to be.

You were the reason that my eyes would shine,

Why did you leave us, O sweet divine? 

I knew you were slipping like the sand, 

Though I clenched so tight,

I have nightmares overtaking my dreams at night,

How I wish this was one of those silly fights.

 

You gave me a head full of dreams.

Now I'm just a lifeless being with a mind full of screams.

I am trying to pick up the pieces of my broken heart,

It's a long trail. I don't know from where to start.

I drank away to ease the pain,

So forever I could forget you, even your name,

But all my efforts went down the drain.

Fuck. These memories are driving me insane.

You were always looking for a constant new,

While I was right there, next to you.

I was so close but yet so far,

You're still my wish upon that shooting star.

I convince myself you think of me

When I close my eyes to sleep,

But then a tear rolls down my cheek,

Knowing it's just a dream.

A thousand frowns behind my smile

But strong enough to walk that mile.

These are my feelings you don't want to know,

And hence to the unknown world I show.

Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend,

But these memories won't seem to end.

I'll have to learn to live with them,

So long live paper and pen!