I Ask Myself...

In the fear, I live,

In the shadows, I stay,

Why You ask? I ask myself the same….

In the noon, I just wish

A place to relate…

At night I ask for nothing more…

But for quiet solace

Here I am, pouring my heart,

With a false smile, tears at bay

I ask myself, why fear caring

Something whispers, because….

No one is worth your loving.

Is it the fault of mine or others I wonder,

I believe it’s mine to figure.

Taking a moment, it's a choice for me

Whether shadows or grief.

Isn’t it better to guard my self

Then to risk, losing it again to someone else?

Shadows don’t lie or try to deceive,

Maybe the reason, why I don’t want to leave.

Faking laughter in front of all

With a feeling of solitude deep in my soul

I want to live, I want to believe

Unafraid of darkness, with no heartache

Maybe I am deluded if I ask for these

But the optimistic soul knows no limits.

One day I will laugh with all my heart,

With a real smile and soulful eyes

But till that day I believe…

I'll ask myself, why stay in shadows

And live in fears….