Half Of Mine Is Gone

It’s been 9 months, since now

Each second I felt it how

You became, you fought

You made it through.

 

The happiest moment has been

I noticed the chanced mine

God has gifted without end

Yes, I am pregnant

 

Communication has been established

Within, I can feel your dynamics

Nourishing you in, ever

How can I be a better Mother?

True feelings, for this amazing gift

The precious and a blessing, within

Like heavenly chorus singing for me

Whole world aside, my world inside me

 

It’s time, to date your birth

I can feel you want to come out

The small world dark, quiet and truth inside

It's a whole lot of different outside.

You have been shy to come out

Maybe you realized it's hurting me a lot

Your mama a warrior

This pain and blood not going to stop me anymore

 

I will always be the shield

Care and humanity unhealed

Be anything happens, I will guide you through

Will lie on thorns to walk you by, even if I die.

 

It’s been a while, doctors around

I can feel the cut, tearing me

Paining a lot, but hopes to see you smile

I am holding hell lot of self for a while

 

All of us waiting for your first cry

Can’t hear anything, but sigh

Doctors and nurses roaming around

You were far, I am lying drought.

 

I felt something wrong

Called them, to respond

One of them came to me and said

Sorry mam, it was a boy and gone

 

Happiness just kiss and torn me apart

All my pain and blood vanished, depart

What was that went wrong

I called them all, but no respond.

 

They came and gave me my little boy

I asked, Why my baby is blue and not pink as it should be

I thought maybe I don’t know as it’s my first

I was crying but kissing him throughout

 

A lot I thought, to say

Haven’t said any, you waved a goodbye

What’s the use of this gift

When there’s pain left after, a lot

 

They started stitching me physically

What about my broken heart though

Hopes death, my heart was beating

When my little one's heart was not

 

They tried to take him apart

How can I give, he’s mine after all

I shouted and cried, I lost myself

Just bare me a second, I haven’t seen him all.

 

Holding him tight, I cried myself out

Oh god, is this an exam or some curse?

I was shivering and loosing within

A nurse came and injected something.

 

After a while, I woke up with pain

Where is my baby? I yelled

My husband and family around drowned in sadness, they said

He’s no more and they took him away

 

Life took a pause or ended

Hell lot of pain, I surrendered

Loads of tablets to consume

Why am I alive, when half of mine is gone

  

For everyone, life moved with the same routine

For me, myself and my soul

Happiness and smile

It’s been 9 months, since now