Fake A Smile :)
Fake A Smile :)
Everybody wants to take control,
Everybody wants to see me feel alive.
I swear I am trying so hard,
So hard to fake that perfect smile.
Everybody thinks I have no clue,
No clue how to live a content life.
But trust me I do;
It's just isn't in my hands right now,
Right now I don't know what to do.
If it was in my hands I would,
I would try not to fake a smile.
If it was in my hands I'll smile,
I'll smile an un-fake smile.
I see all these people around me,
Around me living their life.
I want to feel alive too,
I just don't wanna fake a smile.
I wish someone understood,
How hard it is for me.
For me to wear a smile all day,
All-day trying to be okay.
I wish there was someone,
Someone by my side.
When I felt like giving up,
Giving up on my life.
How do I tell them it feels impossible,
Impossible to fake a smile anymore.
How do I tell them that I truly need,
Need someone to ask me how I feel.
I wish I had the will,
The will to wake up every day.
I swear I am not lazy,
Not lazy just really drained.
How do I tell you I hold my tears,
Hold them when you assume I am a brat.
How do I tell you I need help,
Help to not feel shitty like that.
How do I tell God I am lost,
Lost in these idiotic daydreams.
Daydreams of a happy life,
Life with a happiness guide.
I know all of this is temporary,
But I can't take it anymore.
No more I can fake a smile,
I just wanna feel that happiness for a while!