Imperfect Utopia
Imperfect Utopia
Sitting over a pile of clothes
on the messy floor,
thinking about living in a utopia
and crying behind the closed door.
Nobody ever knew
what went through my brain,
imagining the perfect life
with a lot less of pain.
Then came a cusp
when it all got better,
it was like a hunt
but I guess I finally found the treasure.
I was ferreting for happiness
when it was always under my nose,
it took a long time
but maybe that's what I chose.
Looking back at those days
all the feelings feel so foreign,
I am not scared anymore
which I used to feel very often.
It seems, all the negativity has vanished
or maybe now I am just numb,
I don't recognize,
just what I've become.
Everything worked out
like it was supposed to be;
like always, this time too,
the universe heard me.
From looking like a pallid day of winter sun,
to being on top of the moon,
I found my imperfect utopia,
under the flowers laying strewn.