Depression
Depression
Depression.
One word.
Pretty easy to say.
But what you don't know
That it controls my day
'Just get over it' people say
I wish I could find a way
Living with it day by day
Many feelings of dismay
Memories won't go away
I hope the Lord will show me the way.
I want to scream
I want to die
I want to flood out tears from my eye
I want to stop burning from within
Stop cutting up my skin
It's not a paper
Nor the blade is a pen
But I'm an artist
And I can't quit
Every cut, a step closer to finish my art
Once this happens
The colors soon fade
As if they were dead
But when the color heals
Back to the chapter
I can't tell how it feels.
Do you know a life of loneliness
And filled with pain
Living life with nothing to gain
Surrounded by darkness
Overwhelmed by shame.
Do you know a person so called me
Behind the mask
I hides the hurt, hides the pain
Hides the tears that falls like rain
I say I'm fine when I'm actually not
The ache in my soul rips at my gut.
Obviously,
You would never know it.
The constant pain I feel,
I don't even get time to heal.
But they say,
'You will be happy one day'.
What can I tell them
These silent screams carry no words
It's just the feeling of lonesomeness
And the darkness that comes in herds.
For me
Holding happiness is like holding water in the hands,
It just trickles between your fingers and disappears into the sands.
I can't explain how it feels,
It's so extreme
So I hold my mouth to hide my silent scream
Can you listen to these screams?
But they are so loud that they echo in my dreams.
Over the mask
There is a smile on my face,
Hiding my disgrace.
The unbearable pain of broken dreams,
I kept crying through my silent screams.
At last,
The only thing hardly I could have said,I
It is like tasting death before being dead.