Blue Grimace

Sapphire waves of anxiety

Never ceasing to pull me under

Hues of blue turning grey

Then black, and I surrender

To the darkness

Loneliness

Breathing, I forget

Can't deduce what I regret

And what not

I'm lost in thought

Pain proliferating

Bottled emotions accumulating

Depression

Hallucination

Infatuation

Sorrow cuddling with my dilapidated heart

Poking fun at my mind's befuddlement

No pity shown

Sparing no sentiment

Tired of the liars

Burning me in the fires

Of untold lies

Where my trust dies

In myself

In others

Friends or lovers

Sisters or brothers

Building concrete walls

With remnants of trust, now broken

The halo far gone

Whose place devil's horns have taken

So distance is what I now keep

From you, so you don't weep

From me, lest I get too deep

Deeper than ever

Never to to resurface

From the incessant blues

That leave only a grimace

And the blue hues