Bad Guy?

Can't sleep properly don't know why,

Nothing works, no matter how much I try,

Dear god, I hope I don't have to utter 'nother lie,

To keep people safe, wish I could end it all and die,

Wish I could be mummified in cotton and dye,

And sleep forever, good and evil having a tie,

Because that's what suits me, words being sly,

Like the people who backstabbed me, hi,

I'm the guy with the value of a pi,

more than three times worth one person, but still my,

Overthinking makes me a bad guy

But sometimes I feel alone, lost and stranded,

Can't turn into stone, frost and get landed,

On the don't care list, because I care,

Way too much, both feet bare,

but the cold I bear,

Can't find shoes, a pair,

Just blowing the heated up air

At my soul, lost all my gear,

To some snakes I swear,

But lessons learnt, from war,

Not to have a tank versus car,

Tireless versus tiresome, not at par,

I'm not god just because I spit a good bar,

I've been asking for help but I'm just used freely like WinRAR,

Heart's gone black, the right path, the one filled with tar,

Not a rock fan but surely the road is metalled,

Just wanna rest, once the dust is settled.