Drained Beauty

My life, I am fading

Caring the fear, I am losing

Don't know whether I am alive

But I am breathing fine

Losing those hands-on shoulders

Looking around for a holder

Bright as the sun, cold as winter

Dark as night, sound as of thunder

Roaming around to find something

No gold, no silver

But happiness in something somewhere

Instead, wasting time here and there

Whatever I am seeing

I believe that's the truth

Truth lied to me and

Truth is lying far behind

Whatever I thought wasn’t the truth

Just moved and vanished

Like a mirage in summer, around

Without any trace, mark, and bond

I am living in pieces

To achieve that peace

To cross all hurdles with ease

It's life, no butter, no cheese

Nevertheless, I am finding that strength

To raise you up, above the height

Scolding and cursing self within

Silent in silence, fearing the air whispering

Could not hold enough on my power

Hands bounded around and over

Submerged in that pool of guilt

I am surrendering all that I have built

It's hurting too much

But I am silent

My face is smiling

My inside is too violent

Seeing you drawn in pain and fear

How can I help you any further?

Cloud started fighting for justice

Thunder and storm

It seems like raining or it's my tear's down

Darkness swallowing light

Lifting up to attain a flight

Nature turning red and bright

Here and there, war a silent fight

Like blood, I am seeing it red

Silent but hearing noises inside my head

Justifying the thoughts around

Round and round, I am moving around

Dragging down and drown

Climbing to the throne

Curving and craving, but

Dagger down the heart

Writing something cool

I am the writer of my own

Don't think I am a fool

Just one dynamite, touch to feel how cool