Were we meant to be?

Love, a spark that lit within me when you entered my life, the feeling was just like a surgical strike. I hated my life; I hated the world and the people in it. No one could give me true love that I desire but you did, you made me realized I had a place in this world...

*Girl sobbing softly*

Girl standing on the edge pole of the bridge

I only deserve hate, I am an idiot I am so useless, no one even loves me all I wish is to die!!!

Die. The word echoed in my ears

Ariana: *about to jump off the pole*

Brian: *Holds her hand, what are you doing?!!

Ariana: *Sees that he held her hand that why she didn’t fall*

Tears fall off my face, today I was saved why? Why does almighty want me to live another day? 

Brian took me to college and took to his dorm and put me on his bed and asked me if I was fine… I couldn’t say anything as I was still traumatized. He gave me some water and I fell asleep. Next day I woke up to see him sleep on the floor, so kind. I silently got out of the bed and ran back to my dorm and freshened up and left for my first lecture, I was looking forward to meeting him again I don’t know why but I felt this attraction towards him like I would be safe when he was around… I don’t know why but I missed him even though I was with him half an hour ago.

You must be wondering why he knows me; we are classmates in the same college that’s why…

In lecture I saw him enter class, he was late for the first time ever or the first time I’ve seen at least! It was because of me he had to clean up after me. I was such a useless person, the teacher gave him punishment, I was super guilty as he was suffering all thanks to me! Great! what a great impression I’ve shown. Later I went over to him and apologized for the trouble I had caused for him, he said it was okay and just not to get bullied next time, I smiled and thanked him again and said that I would treat him to lunch since it was the least, I could do. 

During lunch, all the girls were staring at me like literally crazy, of course because I was having lunch with the one and only handsome and most popular guy at college. Enya on the other hand glared at me like she was about to kill me any moment, I could have just run away and tell Brian to stay away from me, but I choose to fight back as I was going to change, I would not be a coward anymore, that stupid Enya, who does she think she is? Just because she is rich doesn’t mean she can bully me! Hmph! Hmph!

After treating him to lunch we went back to our lectures next was Bio, My fav!! The bio class was awesome as well as interesting I just love it and I aspire to be a great doctor someday! I went back to my dorm to see Brian standing outside my dorm room, I asked him why he was here, and he said that he needed notes as he was feverish after lunch, so he didn’t attend bio, Ahaa! That’s why I was wondering where he was during bio class. I called him in as I could not keep a person with fever standing out for long and gave him my book and asked him if he would be fine. He said he’d probably not attend classes tomorrow but that he’d try his best to attend. I asked him if he would like me to take care of him, but he said it was just too much and went back to his room.

I was worried about him I mean he took so much care of me, I started completing my homework and spent the rest of the day reading my favorite novel! I fell asleep reading my book, when I woke up next morning, I saw that its was 8:30am. Ahhh! My classes started at 8:45am. I ran to the washroom dressed up and ran to class thankfully I was lucky as the teacher hadn’t come yet, Phew! I looked around, he wasn’t here, I sighed, I hoped to see him, well I guessed that he was still sick so after classes I decided to visit him… Mathematics was fun today, he would regret being sick today, I went to his dorm after all the classes to check up on him. 

I walked across the corridor and was about to knock on his door when I saw that the door was already open, Ok? Why did he leave it open? Wait was he so weak that he couldn’t even do that! I had to check on him fast! I went in I went to his bedroom to see if he was there, but I saw no one, where was he? Wasn’t he supposed to be in bed? I turned and saw him in a towel, I was about to scream, when he covered my mouth... He was super good looking and handsome; on top he was half naked! He whispered to me to not shout and then uncovered my mouth, I was still staring at him and then I snapped out of it, Heck! I was about to say something when I slipped because of the water on the floor I hadn’t realized it till now and fell on top of him, I was immensely staring into his eyes, so blue, just water, water always calmed me down and it was also my favorite element. Suddenly I felt something just different in my stomach, was I having butterflies? I realized that I was on top of him for so long and got up saying sorry.

Brian said that it was ok and that now he was fine and was planning to come to class tomorrow, I said OK but deep down I was extremely happy! I left and went to my dorm and stood on the balcony, what was it? The feeling that I felt when I was on top of him, was it love? Was I in love? I mean seeing him always made me so happy and I always felt like I spend my whole time with him! I was never loved before nor did I ever love before, I was an orphan, my dad died when I was 6 and since then my mom totally changed, she started abusing me and beating me, whenever my grade would be down she would beat me, she would even tell me to buy alcohol for her with a fake ID, and I don’t even know how I even made it through till today, I also suffered from depression and one day decided to leave home and that’s when I was about to jump off the bridge…

Today was a sunny bright day, I loved sunny days they always made me feel warm and lovely! And we had one week holiday, so I was free the whole day, in the morning from 10 to 11:30am I was reading my novel, later I was completely free, so I thought of going out. I went out, it was a long time since I was out, mostly everyone else had gone to their hometown to visit their parents, the thought of parents saddened me, so I thought of going to a bookstore, since I had completed my novel… 

I entered the library and guess what! I saw Brian, great! Why does he have to be everywhere, now I wouldn’t be able to focus on my book and would be thinking of what had happened yesterday in his dorm…Someone save me!

I went in hiddenly hoping that he wouldn’t see me, Phew! He didn’t see me. I turned to take a book and him standing behind me I was so shocked that I was about to scream but he covered my mouth as this was a public library. 

We both sat on our seats and after 1 hour we left. He asked me whether I wanted to go the nearby fare and I said yes, I mean who would deny that! We had tons of fun their and went for lunch and then came back to college, we thought that we would meet tomorrow as well, thinking of that made me extremely excited and happy! Days went on we almost met everyday and slowly I started liking him. For the first time in my life, I thought I could ever actually love someone, I had told him about my past and he had comforted me a lot… I started loving him a lot.

We became really comfortable around each other, one he took me somewhere we were in a forest place and suddenly he said that I was walking too slow, how dare he, humph! He started pulling me and I hurt my leg on a stone, Owww! I screamed, Now look what you’ve done, Idiot!

Sorry, now get on

Okay

I got on his back our faces were so close to each other, we finally reached the top and he put me down, it was a beautiful scenery, I had never seen anything like it, I was so mesmerizing, I just loved it! Forgetting about my injury I jumped to hug him and because of the pain in my legs I fell on him, he seemed to be in pain like he was hurt… 

I got off him and helped him up, I told him to show his back, but he just wouldn’t listen! 

Finally, he showed me and after reaching college I helped clean it and put a plaster, it was just a small injury nothing serious. I had decided to finally confess to him…

Today after class I asked him to meet me at my dorm, my heart started beating rapidly when he came.

Ariana: Brian I wanted to tell you something, IloveyousincethedayImetyouandIhopeyoufeelthesameandifyoudontitsokdontbeafraidtorejectme.

Brian: Uhm… I didn’t understand a single word you just said, can you pls say it a bit slowly?

Ariana: Sure, I love you since the day I met you and I hope you feel the same and if you don’t it’s ok don’t be afraid to reject me.

Brian: …… Can I tell you by tomorrow?

Ariana: Sure ok… Now it would be better if you left, I need to do my homework

Brian: But…

Ariana: JUST LEAVE!

I was so heartbroken I mean how could he keep me hanging, I loved him so much and all he could say was I will tell you tomorrow, after he left, I spent the whole night crying, I don’t even know when I fell asleep… 

My final exams had gone well, but I still couldn’t stop thinking about him, tomorrow was graduation, I was planning to leave this place so tomorrow was the last day I’d ever see him…

I left for Canada to pursue my career without telling anyone and changed my contact number, I changed my appearance and now stopped using glasses and changed my dressing style…

I studied for further accomplishment and completed my studies and now was a doctor. It had been 3 years working as a doctor and 7 years since I left my birthplace, UK.

I still remember him and his beautiful smile that I would die to see now, I missed him so much, he was still a star in my heart…

1 week later I got to know that there was a urgent operation and that I had to go to UK for that operation as the patient was over there and in a critical situation, so we flew that day itself…

I reached UK and drove to the hospital as fast as I could because I was late for the operation and me coming late could seriously affect the patient’s health, I ran inside the hospital to the operation theatre. The moment I went in I couldn’t believe my eyes, it was him, how did he end up this way? Was it because of me? I completed the operation, and he was out of threat now. I was told to check on him to see if he was okay.

When I entered, he said” Thanks for saving my life.

No problem, it’s my duty as a doctor, I didn’t do it because I care about you or anything.

Hey, about that day—

I don’t want to talk about it, not like I love you anymore, I’ve completely moved on *I said halfheartedly*

Had I moved on? I even doubted my own words, deep down I still missed him too much…

Brian’s POV

I loved her back then she confessed out of nowhere that’s why my mind had gone blank I was planning to accept the next day when she just disappeared without leaving any contact and changed, her number as well…

Back to Ariana

I was assigned to check on him for 2 weeks till he was discharged. I still didn’t talk to him, but after one week, I talk with him occasionally, but not much. After getting discharged he said that he wanted to treat me as I had help save his life, so I thought, going wouldn’t harm, so we went on lunch and talked a bit and he asked me to come to the carnival and we had tons of fun, but I still didn’t talk much to him…

It was night and we had dinner and I was going home, he insisted on dropping me, but I directly rejected the offer.

As walked through the streets it was as if someone was following me, I was scared mainly because I was night, three guys appeared out of nowhere, they seemed drunk, one of them grabbed my arm tight, they started touching and molesting me, I screamed for help but no one was around, one of them ripped my top, I started crying, someone save me , I tried to fight but they were just too strong, one of them was about to touch me in my chest, when someone punched him, I couldn’t see who it was, he kicked them and grabbed me, I realized who it was, it was Brian, he beat the hell out of them and put his coat over me, I started hugged him and started crying in his arms, he patted my head to comfort me and told me to cry all I wanted, he picked me up and put me in his car. I was still traumatized from what had just happened, we reached his house, I wanted to ask why he brought me here but right now, didn’t care about that at all. I couldn’t move at all so he put me on the chair and gave me some water and I started crying again, I was horribly scared what if he wasn’t there, what if I would have been raped?

He put me on the bed and asked me to sleep but I didn’t want to be alone I was still so scared and asked him to stay for a while. We both fell asleep together and when I woke in the morning my head hurt a lot, I started remembering everything that had happened yesterday and tears rolled down my cheeks, by then Brian was also awake and hugged me tight to calm me down. He took me back home and I thanked him a lot for saving me. After that day I could never pay him back, I met him in the library as usual, he was still fond of reading books just like me. We became friends and my feeling grew for him more and more eventually I thought to give him another chance I mean I love him.

Brian’s POV

I walk down the streets and saw a scene that shattered my heart into pieces, how could she, I loved her, were all those days we spent together just as friends? Had she really moved on?

You must be confused but I saw Ariana kissing a guy on the corner of the street, tears rolled down my cheeks and I ran from there.

4 hours later.

On Brian’s phone*

*New message*

I saw Ariana had sent me a message, it said “Would you like to go out for a “date”?

How could she, she wants to play with my feelings now, is it her way of taking revenge? First kissing someone then asking me to go out. I figured it would be the last time I met her, so I went.

Ariana’s side

I was too excited; I would finally be able to confess again, and I was now confident. I had set up a beautiful date for us! I dressed in my fanciest dress and went to the venue everything was set the only thing needed was his yes! He was late, he never does that usually though I wondered why? But I just shrugged the feeling off, when he came, he also seemed like he was angry because he was just too grumpy. The moment had finally come, I stood up and

Ariana: I love you, Brian! I realized that I would like to give you a second chance, so do you accept?

Brian: You of all people, expect me to accept you after what you’ve done?

Ariana: What do you mean?

Brian: OH! Now don’t try to act all innocent, I hate you and wish that I would have never met a person like you in my entire life, you deserve hell, SAVING YOU WAS THE WORST MISTAKE I EVER DID!!!

*I realized what all I had said but was too angry to take it back*

Wow! Hearing all that was just, horrible! Saving me was the worst mistake, yeah and I only deserved hell didn’t I, now the only person in this world who ever comforted me and told me that my existence was a gift, now hate me like I’m his biggest curse, I am, I am just a curse aren’t I? Tears exploded from my eyes I was just so helpless.

Ariana: If you hated me, you should have never saved me in the first place.

I ran from the place I couldn’t see his face, I ran to the bridge nearby, he wanted me dead, wasn’t it? Here, I would like to fulfil his wish by jumping off this bridge at least everyone would be happy if I did so…

Brian

I realized what she was about to do, I hated her for playing with my feelings but not so much that I would want her dead, I could never see her die not because of me… I ran and ran; she was about to jump when I screamed! No! I held her hand, she was saved she was okay, she was alive that’s all that mattered! I hugged so tight that she started coughing, we both looked into each other’s eyes for a while and then I just couldn’t hold back, and I kissed her, I was like all my worries were disappearing…

Ariana POV

When he kissed me, it was the best feeling ever like I was in heaven but when I look back to what had just happened, I pushed him…

Ariana: What’s with you? First you wish for me to die then accept and do this? What did I do wrong?

Brian: I had seen you kissing someone before today 4 hours ago in the corner of the street.

Ariana: What! Me! Never I loved you more than anyone else why would I ever do that?

Then I realized!! 

Ariana: Oh! You must’ve seen my cousin sister! She looks so alike to me you’d almost never be able to differentiate! I swear I never even went out today.

Brian: Wow, I am so sorry Ariana, and I never meant the words I said they just came out of my mouth because of anger, I am so sorry, I understand I you don’t like me anymore.

Ariana: Shut up dummy! Of course, I like you *I hugged him tight*

Brian: *Pats on her head*