Mind

"To understand another person, you must swim in the same water that drowned them..."

From outside looking in it's hard to understand, 

From inside looking out, it's hard to explain,

Putting words together,

Forming inside my head,

Ready to be said;

The real question is, 

Will they be heard??

When I speak, will they be slurred??

What's my worth??

Depression holds me in darkness,

Anxiety tells me, the darkness will keep me safe,

Racing thoughts, put words in my head, spinning them, telling me I should be dead,

I am nothing! I am worthless! I am empty!

I am darkness,

I am ugly,

I can't get it right,

These are the words inside my head,

If I put them on a paper, release them, set them free,

I'll have a moment where I can breathe,

You may not understand the words I say, but that's ok because this here, 

These words I write, are my way to say, I made it, 

One more day!

One more fight!

You may not see the struggle inside,

It's here,

It's real,

I don't lie,

I confess this isn't easy, 

But these are the words I need to say, 

What's stronger than a human heart that scatters over and over and still lives??

"Sometimes faking a smile is easier than explaining why you are who you are..."