Kirdaar

A girl staring at the window which is closed and it's heavily raining outside; she is thinking of her past and reciting her words.

From waking up at 5 am to setting things for us, from preparing food for our tummies to feeding us, from arranging newspapers to arranging files of her hubby, from preparing black coffee for him to preparing tea for her in-laws, from doing pooja for peace to worshipping her family for the love, from making her hubby and children leave for their respective work to letting herself to work for the home, from doing household stuff to planning for her own small scale business, from trying everything to work efficiently to trying herself to fit in everyone's life, from wiping tears of others to weeping silently in her room, from trying to keep everyone happy to losing herself, from digestion the insult to keeping hope for the best, from fighting with everyone for the betterment of the family to fighting within her soul, from hiding the small mistakes of her family members to getting scolded for even her minute mistakes, from smiling with heart out to give a fake smile, from working 24 ×7 for the family to working on herself for a while, from solving the problems of others to solving the problems those are going in her mind, from sleeping after every one to waking up before the sun arise, from thinking of her dreams to thinking of everyone... I think we are ignoring the efforts of a strong lady we call "superwoman."

I don't know why people compare men and women when they don't see the efforts of a woman. For what they call males as the working hard heads? Have you ever seen how hard it's to manage the entire house? Without asking for leave and keeping her mouth shut, from burning the gas stove to burning her dreams behind her vision. No matter how long she wished to complete her desire all she is asked for is to set them on fire. She might be working the whole day being pissed off by all... but all she needs to do is stay calm and back to be on her work. She never dreams of backing away from her duties yet she's always called by the words such as LAZY.

A girl is always supposed to change herself accordingly to the new family. Doing all her responsibility well without a question. Then why do we say that men always work between the two families? The lady who was once called a STAR in her father's home is counted among the MAID who are made fun off. No wonder a woman is a package of being a multitasker and different emotions but her emotions to convey are what her heart can't. A woman can engulf anything but when it comes to her self esteem she gets broken up. The time when her husband with his friends makes fun of her yelling with laughter, "it's her job to feed us, what else she does staying at home". Dear men, I have a question to all of you.

Do you think yours is the only job? Have you ever stayed at home. No wonder you could handle the pressure of the work. We ladies keep on doing the whole day long. You chose to stay home and look after them, we did with our heart but what did we get? You cursed us for your failures, you broke us for your anger, you pulled our hairs in your ego, you loved us just to have some fun. Completing our duties without saying a word, working as a maid just to keep on your fun. Yet after all these efforts you ignore our efforts and forget to count that we also make the family first. Carrying the pain of periods to carrying the pain of childbirth, we still keep on smiling just not to let the family fall to worst. Have you ever noticed how hard life becomes after childbirth? Your work is counted among the work and what about ours? Don't we work? Day by day she burns her soul, but none of you notice at all.

She sees her wishes always being on pause but you keep on having fun as if all wasn't yours? One day when all will be out of control she will definitely fly like never before. The day she will fly leaving all behind, I know you all will fall and try to bind her behind. A girl can be worst if she had it all, her mind, heart, and soul all will be bold, now not for the family but for her dreams. Dreams which were promised to her during her teens, after the marriage you shattered them all burdening her with the daily chaos and laying down saying what does she do staying at home. Why to lose a pure soul by breaking her when you can be the one to hold on her life long? If you can't promise to keep her happy then why do you marry giving her tears? Get your footsteps on the right path, before it's late, hold on fast. ...

The rain stopped as so her tears; knock knock... there's someone... You have been called down mam, the guest is waiting for your poem. (Tears rolling down thinking off all ) After all, to complete her wish she had left her home... Now the star of her home is back in form. Leaving the worries all behind... pursuing her dreams which were buried for 40 years. 40 years of losing herself in the character of a girl , a daughter, a wife, a mom, an aunt, a relative, an in-law, a granny now she is back in a wave. Now see the air is moving in the direction where a man can't catch. Performing all the characters, she had it all now; its time to live the life she had dreamt for long.