Gone

I look at who I used to be

A girl with her head lost in the skies

With no clue as to what was coming

And that every light eventually dies

While plunging her into the darkness

So absolute it so often seemed

Like nothing could really actually survive there

So it silenced her every scream

And as time passed her by

She became the person others forced her to be

But if any of her had survived

Then I guess that she would have to become me

I cannot honestly say that truly regret it

Since that must mean that I am still really here

I just had to keep on going

And I had to stop having a single care

My give-a-f**k is not broken 

My give-a-f**k is just gone

It disappeared that painful year

When every single thing went so wrong

When wonderland even went quite insane 

And death was nearly everywhere

So do not judge me for my darkness

Or what I had to do to be able to survive there

Because you have only read words onto a screen

And you are not the one who bled

You have no idea what I was forced to go through

Or how they even left me for dead

So maybe just keep on scrolling

If you do not like what you read

And instead of playing "keyboard judge"

While also leaving words that nobody needs

Once again words have came before you

And best believe that they are done

Because I was gifted with putting together words

And my give-a-f**k is just gone!!