Destiny, Desire

I want to end my life. I don't wanna live anymore, I'm fed up of all it's ...it's so impossible to live anymore now...Leave me Ayan I don't wanna be alive now.

You knew everything still you wants me to stay in this world. No one loves me. I was young when my parents left me. Since then my granny had taken charges of mine. And gave me a beautiful life, but last year she too left me. That time Rihan gave a shoulder to me and helped me overcome from my dark days.

And now see what he has done, those days, those late-night calls, those chats those memories were just ....just a part of his leisure time..relationship is just a part of the enjoyment for him...He made those fake promises which sound real but now when I relate it to this day they seem to be totally fake.

I don't know what should I do today when I saw him with Riya I was shocked. Riya the one who used to secure me about Rihan, was today enjoying his company and he was like nothing matters to him, neglected me like I was nothing ever to him. Now after all these what do you expect from me that I should live and see that cheater enjoying his life peacefully? Let him be cozy, flirty and be happy and by this side, I'll be burning like coal here and curse my destiny, faith and get my love insulted ...No Ayan I can't afford it now anymore. Let me end me up, this will be an act of revenge. He will cry after I'll leave this world then only he will gain my importance, my value, my perspective in his life.

Ye, you are right I totally agree with you I would let you do whatever you want but just give the answer to my questions. Please, can you do that once?

"Was for this day your parents had brought you to this world?"

"Was for this day your granny took charges of your life and safety? "

"Was for this day we are childhood buddies?" That one day, because of one idiot you would insist to end up your beautiful life. You want to take revenge to take it surely take it, indeed I'll help too in pursuing your revenge but not by ending up your life for that you have to live and love your life.

Revenge is not only taken by ending up lives something bright planning towards the future can do much. You have to do this only. Create your future so that even he tries to return back in your life he could not find stairs to come towards you. Be that much success that he dies daily to have at least a 5 min meeting with you. Let him enjoy this fake relationship 's life you work hard on creating your bright and revengeful future and in this, I'm always with you. Whatever I could do I'll do. No matter what situation I'm I'll always be there for you. 

Ayan why do you always favor me so much?

Why do you help me so much? Why like others you never leave me? Why?

Because I love you and it's a true fact when you love someone truly you cannot afford a single tear in their eyes and a small piece of tension lines on their forehead I love you since childhood. The day Rihan proposed you I was to be ready to give my love to you but when I saw you happy with his proposal I held behind kept my love a secret from you.

You know what Ayan, today I learned a new thing; destiny is more powerful than anything else. My destiny is joined with you that's the reason since childhood it's you who understands me..you are my best friend who consoles and help me walk on the right path.

Don't know when I'll be able to provide you the love you expects from me but I'll try my best to give you because now what I'm going to do is true and with whole my heart and feelings Ayan I LOVE YOU. WILL YOU MARRY ME because only then I'll be able to reach my success and have a better life? You are the creator of my new life and I want to spend it with you till my last breath.