Cost of Leaving

I am standing in a balcony and taking sunbath. Morning during winter is always picturesque. Cold wind, foggy sky and glazy sunbeams make it blossomed. Suddenly I heard a voice of Sakshi. 

Sakshi: Breakfast is ready.

I adjust the table and chairs and asked her to bring breakfast.

We have settled ourselves comfortably in balcony and started chatting. 

Sakshi: Morning is beautiful today.

Yes. Experiencing such a lovely morning after long time. Responsibilities of life always forced me to run. Not sure why people afraid of retirement. It is actually a second life which allows one to live as per own wish.

Sakshi : I feel, you must rethink on your decision. With a deep breath.

Sometime you have to take very difficult decisions but don't worry I will give enough opportunities to him before concluding anything.

Sakshi : But Sahil is our only son. Do you want to say that we are going to live alone in oldage? In young age, child uses to be aggressive. It doesn't mean we can leave them.

I know you have mother's heart but how long will you compromise on your self-respect. Your daughter in law feels that we are burden on them. Now I am retired with no regular income and expenses on us will hamper their budget. In last 6 months, they have discussed this via different ways and I really don't want to loose my respect at last league of life.

Sakshi : Sahil will talk with you today. I only wish for happy family. Don't have courage to see broken relation with loved one. With nervous and thoughtful voice.

It is 7:00 PM, Sahil has entered and as usual walked to his room. Discssion between Sahil and Dhwani (His wife) is on its top and vibes are coming out with sarcasm.

Sahil : With very aggressive voice, Papa I am really pissed off. Relation between Dhwani and Mom are getting worst day by day and you have to understand that now we need freedom in life. I don’t want everyday drama at home.

Actually I am also thinking on same lines. Do you have any solution? With very straight expression.

Sahil : What solution? How much Dhwani will adjust with all of you? You have to adjust with her and support her.

But we don't have any complaint againat Dhwani. She has complaints and she is expecting your mother to change the way of life. She expects your mother obeys all her orders and live like a maid. She expects that we listen her all sarcastic comments like a slave without any argument and words. Do you really want to reinforce the same?

Sahil : Ohhh. Now you have enough logics to argue and prove us wrong. So you both are not ready to accept your fault.

Fault... with very heavy voice. Do you want to say that one will loose the right to speak and obey all orders as he doesn't have source of income. I am surprised to see my accountant son making balance sheet of relations.

Sahil : This is the problem of people with your age. You are not able to understand practicality of life and have emotional dilogues to prove yourself. Don't want to discuss more.

I also not want to make relations more poisonous. What is going on after my retireme

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nt has already given us enough bitter experiences. It is always better that we can find out our own ways. I will manage my survival with savings I have or work partime. You may please see another house by monthend to move. Let both of us live our life with enough freedom.

Sakshi is standing with tears in eyes. She has tried to talk with Sahil but he has pushed her back and moved to his room. 

I am unable to tolerate this Sakshi. Trust me, we will live our life in better way. It is always better to earn bread and butter rather a miserable life begging everyday to keep relations alive.

Sakshi : Trying to settle down on sofa with almost unconscious condition. Please do what you feel right. I am with you as always.

It is 9 PM, I and Shakshi take our place on dinning table and asked Sahil to join. Sahil has rudely refused it. He wants to take dinner in room with his wife as she is not feeling well. Another shock to Sakshi but somehow she is trying to control feelings. 

Sakshi has completed dinner in hurry without much of interest. She is trying to sleep early. I am feeling her pain and worries. I am not able to sleep. Recalling all ups and downs of last 30 years. Trying to listen music, reading book, watching TV but not able to melowdown restlessness inside me. Somehow manage to get sleep for few hours after midnight.

Today is Sunday and morning comes up with happiness for Sakshi. Sahil has approached Sakshi along with Dhwani. I am sorry Mom. We really love you and want to live with you. Actually wants to give you lot of warmth, reapect and joy but may be conditions have increased misunderstanding between us. Sakshi has hugged Sahil. She is crying like a child and her heart is started melting. Sahil's words worked like a life exilir for her. She is glad with ray of hope and eternal joy. She feels like a child who got his favorite toy.

Sakshi : Do you heared what Sahil is saying? I know my son loves me lot. I am flying in the sky.

Please stop behaving like a child Sakshi. I shouted like anything. 

Do you know the reason behind this love? Do you know why both of them are showing so much warmth? Do you know why he realized within a night that you are a good mother? They are playing with your emotions.

Sakshi : Started crying, why you want to be rude while our child is ready to forget everything and live with us happily? See he loves me lot.

I told you earlier also he is not your son he is an accountant. I was unable to sleep yesterday and meanwhile heared their discussion. I am feeling ashamed. 

Your beloved son and your obidient daughter in law were calculating rent for new house and other expenses. They found costing of 30000 which is half of Sahil's salary and much higher than they are spending on us so your accountant son has taken this decision after calculating profitability. 

He actually realized that cost of leaving is higher than cost of living together.

I will beg to survive but not live with such a penurious and shamless people. Mr. Sahil you may please leave my home by monthend without further discussion on it.

There is a deep silence in room !!