Within Me

More I ask for stoicism,

painful the journey becomes.

Giving me a blow, to overcome it though

Resilient, I became persistent to move.

More I asked for steadiness,

Tottering the path becomes.

Shattering me deeply, it has to pass

Firmness I hold to be strong.

More excrescence I demand,

Hurdles grip me even more.

Crossing them becomes my goal.

Sometimes I fall, but then I learn to stand tall.

More I asked for a camaraderie,

Desolation surrounds me more.

Then I had none but me.

And learned to eventually embrace solitude.

All the tranquility I demanded,

Delimatic the torment became

I struggled to be sane and learned to be serene.

More I asked for happiness,

Agonies came the way

Reminding me of my piousness.

Ironical this may sound

But I learned to find everything I asked for

WITHIN ME

now I don't ask for contentment

I create it.